A year has now passed

Now it's been a year since my father died, a week before his birthday, and now Saturday is a year since the funeral.

I have to admit that the events have already burdened me a lot and I keep wondering why why

I don't blame myself, but I wonder if I should have, shouldn't have been more energetic, and should have more or less almost taken them to the doctor.

When I think about what has happened this whole year, what tasks and hurdles I have taken and what changes there have been, it is really impressive.

On the one hand, it is the changes concerning my family, I would not have thought that I would get such a good connection to the other side and I am so grateful for the unconditional help of my mother of my sister and also of my brother-in-law.

Even getting the budget back in order was a huge task, before which I have been standing in the last few years, but so many things have remained that could have been done long ago, everything could have been done, but as they say so nicely, company blindness with time you can no longer see so much or even perceive it no longer.

But also my personal change I have more and more admitted to myself that I am actually dependent on help, be it from my family environment or from others that was a big step.

On the whole, I would say that there is a tremendous spiritual achievement behind it, because I had to think a lot about myself and about life and gain new insights.

Even if, as in the previous postings or contributions, I have reported some changes still to be made and I am glad to have taken this step.

I know that the coming half of the year will be calmer with me and can look you optimistically into the future.

I hope that I can maintain this optimism that does not now feel in me for a long time, because not everything that shines is also gold and I also know that in the future time will come to me again that are less good

But as my father always likes to say, what doesn't kill us only makes us harder and he's right about every task I master, I grow beyond myself.

It's a lot of small steps, but on the whole I'm really proud of my changes and my development and I've achieved it all with the help of my family.

Now this one small challenge comes to me and the living environment change and this I look forward to very optimistically, even if this task is a headache here and there, because I still have a few small things, a few construction sites that I have to solve, such as the aquariums there I have not yet found a good solution.

Not that despite you I look optimistically into the future and this realization is worth gold.

What about you and how do you deal with such changes, can you also be happy if you know that things will get better in the future? Write it in the comments.

Your Sasha

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