Negatives for the weekend

The title suggests a lot of strange things but I noticed it and especially in the last few months that I always get bad mail or get bad news just before the weekend so that I can't fix anything and I have to think about it again and again the whole weekend.

Now it has already happened for the tenth time that I have received a letter on Friday that forces me to act otherwise I have to fear any consequences be it from the pension office or the office for social security or other authority.

And now I'm sitting there I have the letter in front of me know exactly you have to do something now but don't even have to call because no one goes to the phone anymore, I've had this experience many times before, above all it's always the same places where I have to report, why can't you write these letters sooner, why does it always have to be at the weekend where I can't do anything, where I sit all the time and have to think about this letter and the facts.

At first I thought how I thought about it so much that it was a so-called ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ that this letter always comes to the weekend especially like to come to one on Friday or Saturday but no it is so, I have even looked through my folders times when these letters were created and when they were then probably most likely with me and it was always so that they were first written on Thursday or Friday and accordingly could only be with me on Friday or Saturday at the earliest.

Some people don't think that's something you can't change and they don't do it intentionally that I think they don't do it intentionally, but it's a thing that really annoys me, because my weekend is in the ass, I can't sleep at night, I can't get out of bed in the morning, I always have this thing in my head all the time and sometimes it's about mere existence.

I realize that the problem is more from my side, as from the others, then I will be a different attitude to the matter, if I basically didn’t care if I didn’t think these thoughts I wouldn’t sit there at night and brood, but I am not such a person, I’m always very much after and always on the substance, because I would like to have everything done in advance in time and as early as possible and not as at the last pusher.

I have once reported to an office and got that with a deadline of three months in advance, I report in response only four weeks before, so I have also then done four weeks before and have heard a week first of nothing, but in the second weeks you started, I could run up the walls because what if that does not work, what is if something is missing, if documents are missing, if I have to submit something, I have real fears of existence.

Then my counterpart gets his money, he gets his salary and what is there with me? What am I supposed to live on, how am I supposed to pay for everything if I don't get any money?

Of course, this is the stuff that drives my thought carousel, the fuel that never runs out until I fall asleep exhausted at some point. I would also like to be a little relaxed about the matter, but I know the country far too well, the attitude of the people in the offices.

I would like a little more serenity in this matter for the future and that these letters get from Monday to Wednesday, but this is of course pure wishful thinking so I only have to do something about my attitude, that I stay there more relaxed and trust that everything always develops into good.

Unfortunately, I have already experienced that not everything always develops for the good and I think that is also the trigger for these existential fears, then once you have stood there for a few weeks without money then you know how bad this is.

Do you have any recipes or behaviors in these situations? Or how do you deal with it? Write it in the comments, I would be very happy about it.

Your Sasha

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