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00:00 - 0:00:17 [Music]
0:00:17 – 0:00:20 Hello and welcome to a new edition of the release.
0:00:20 – 0:00:29 Where I am wonderful and actually always, well almost always, from the actual topic, what I have planned.
0:00:29 – 0:00:33 I'm Sascha Markmann and I say hello.
0:00:33 – 0:00:41 Today's topic, which I've been thinking about, I don't even know a title for.
0:00:41 – 0:00:54 It's about why I carry my education out very often, not so often,
0:00:54 – 0:01:02 It communicates little to no.
0:01:02 – 0:01:07 Well, I'll give you a rough outline.
0:01:07 – 0:01:14 I was in a regular school for a year and was supposed to repeat the year
0:01:14 – 0:01:18 There was also a suspicion that something was wrong with me.
0:01:18 – 0:01:28 So I had such a special examination at the health office at the time
0:01:28 – 0:01:36 and then it came out that there is a giftedness in me
0:01:36 – 0:01:39 Normal schools aren't for me.
0:01:39 – 0:01:46 At the beginning of the 1980s, this was never such a huge topic.
0:01:46 – 0:01:55 children who have such special needs,
0:01:55 – 0:01:59 and great support, unless you live in the big city
0:01:59 – 0:02:04 and I lived in the Ruhr area, but not directly in the big city,
0:02:04 – 0:02:10 but on the edge of the Ruhr area, rather towards the border Münsterland.
0:02:10 – 0:02:18 And one of the social workers who were there said,
0:02:18 – 0:02:21 I wonder if my parents have ever heard of Waldorf School.
0:02:21 – 0:02:26 And then my father said, yes, there's a co-worker,
0:02:26 – 0:02:32 At that time my father worked as a curator and educator,
0:02:32 – 0:02:35 in a home for the mentally handicapped,
0:02:35 – 0:02:42 and the co-worker of it, the daughter, she would be very enthusiastic about the school.
0:02:42 – 0:02:49 Yes, then it was probably discussed internally with the family,
0:02:49 – 0:02:51 Schools aren't cheap either.
0:02:51 – 0:02:55 and since my mother and father also went to work
0:02:55 – 0:02:59 and have earned quite well, one now also talks about a slightly larger amount of money,
0:02:59 – 0:03:03 Which you have to pay that way.
0:03:03 – 0:03:12 Yes, then I was at Waldorf school, in a class with about 40 people.
0:03:12 – 0:03:15 And the interesting thing about the school was,
0:03:15 – 0:03:17 that one could not leave the school only with the Abitur,
0:03:17 – 0:03:21 but also with a completed vocational training in various areas,
0:03:21 – 0:03:29 craftsmanship, as an educator, as a tailor and many other things.
0:03:29 – 0:03:35 Yes, there came a time such a guess,
0:03:35 – 0:03:41 because I have never really achieved the class goal,
0:03:41 – 0:03:47 Maybe I have a dyslexia or something.
0:03:47 – 0:03:52 or a dyscalculia, and this was then investigated,
0:03:52 – 0:03:58 back then in Wittenherdecke, and there came out, yes, jackpot,
0:03:58 – 0:04:06 There is a dyslexia, i.e. a greater weakness in reading and spelling.
0:04:06 – 0:04:11 A reading and spelling weakness could be stopped with targeted training
0:04:11 – 0:04:15 iron out again, and then you get along better,
0:04:15 – 0:04:19 But in dyslexia there is some kind of miswiring.
0:04:19 – 0:04:25 Yes, then they had discussed what they could do,
0:04:25 – 0:04:29 And then, the class is definitely too big for me,
0:04:29 – 0:04:32 and one could not respond to my special needs,
0:04:32 – 0:04:35 Then we went to school for a change.
0:04:35 – 0:04:38 I went from 5th grade to 6th grade.
0:04:38 – 0:04:42 I live in a so-called small class.
0:04:42 – 0:04:48 we were a maximum of 14 people, so most of the time we were somehow always around 12,
0:04:48 – 0:04:54 Then, after half a year, I had such an aha experience.
0:04:54 – 0:04:59 That somehow I'm from my childishly dreamy world
0:04:59 – 0:05:02 All of a sudden, everything that was on the table made sense.
0:05:02 – 0:05:06 That was in the middle of the math class, and I did the tasks for the weak students,
0:05:06 – 0:05:10 then I also made too much boredom the tasks for the strong students,
0:05:10 – 0:05:15 Then I helped the poor students.
0:05:15 – 0:05:18 Yes, and from there everything was somehow different,
0:05:18 – 0:05:22 I had to, except in German or English,
0:05:22 – 0:05:28 I don't really do homework because that's what happened to me.
0:05:28 – 0:05:33 I don't know, do you know the movie "Phenomen"?
0:05:33 – 0:05:39 There's a scene like this where the main actor looks up at the sky like this
0:05:39 – 0:05:42 And when he sees the light coming to him, it hits him.
0:05:42 – 0:05:47 After that, he has special abilities.
0:05:47 – 0:05:50 I had a similar experience in sixth grade.
0:05:50 – 0:05:54 It wasn't a light, but it suddenly made "Peng" in my head.
0:05:54 – 0:06:01 Yeah, that's how it went.
0:06:01 – 0:06:05 I've been wandering through the years,
0:06:05 – 0:06:09 and at some point I didn't have to do any homework in German and English myself,
0:06:09 – 0:06:13 It was all so easy.
0:06:13 – 0:06:22 And yes, high school graduation, that has flown to me so, that was almost gifted,
0:06:22 – 0:06:31 And then I did an apprenticeship as an electrician so I could have something.
0:06:31 – 0:06:36 Then I studied,
0:06:36 – 0:06:45 Then I realized I wanted to work with people.
0:06:45 – 0:06:50 I took care of the elderly again.
0:06:50 – 0:06:54 Now you have to imagine how it comes,
0:06:54 – 0:06:58 that I have learned with my talents and abilities,
0:06:58 – 0:07:00 Standing behind the mountain.
0:07:01 – 0:07:11 I'll be there someday, you have to be in ninth grade.
0:07:11 – 0:07:16 There we have other classes together, so always one year of age,
0:07:16 – 0:07:20 School trips or internships.
0:07:20 – 0:07:24 So in the Waldorf school you also do with the whole class
0:07:24 – 0:07:28 such a kind of work placement or agricultural internship
0:07:28 – 0:07:30 or land propagation internship.
0:07:30 – 0:07:35 And we always drove with one of the parallel classes.
0:07:35 – 0:07:40 And that's the first time I've been heard talking like that.
0:07:40 – 0:07:44 I mean, you knew each other a little bit, but not really well,
0:07:44 – 0:07:52 I just got a nickname Jesus or Professor.
0:07:52 – 0:07:57 and that they had made fun of it,
0:07:57 – 0:08:04 about how I write, because there are still a lot of spelling mistakes inside,
0:08:04 – 0:08:07 And how I talk.
0:08:07 – 0:08:11 Then came, I think it was in the tenth grade,
0:08:11 – 0:08:14 We also had certain classes together.
0:08:14 – 0:08:17 In the normal schools, one would say, so elective subjects.
0:08:17 – 0:08:22 And we didn't have the opportunity to choose,
0:08:22 – 0:08:27 'Cause we've been doing one thing for a couple of weeks,
0:08:27 – 0:08:31 then a few weeks the other thing, so metal processing,
0:08:31 – 0:08:43 practical physics, electronics, carpenters, textile and textile design,
0:08:43 – 0:08:47 Tailors and many other things.
0:08:48 – 0:08:53 And people have noticed that it just doesn't fit together.
0:08:53 – 0:09:03 And I realized that if I don't give away so much of myself
0:09:03 – 0:09:09 and shut down a few gears, so from gear 1 to gear 12,
0:09:09 – 0:09:16 I have fewer problems because I have fewer ugliness.
0:09:16 – 0:09:19 Or, I'd say, there was a lot of bullying.
0:09:19 – 0:09:27 Because I've always gotten a lot for doing nothing.
0:09:27 – 0:09:32 I was the laziest student, I never did homework
0:09:32 – 0:09:43 And if you put that in notes, I've got 1+ written.
0:09:44 – 0:09:48 And when a question was asked and no one in the class knew,
0:09:48 – 0:09:53 I was asked because the teachers knew.
0:09:53 – 0:09:57 He knows.
0:09:57 – 0:10:03 Of course, this was also evident in the vocational school.
0:10:03 – 0:10:07 They had also been nicknamed Professor relatively quickly.
0:10:08 – 0:10:17 because I have had practical physics for several years before
0:10:17 – 0:10:22 And we just disassembled electronics circuits, assembled them.
0:10:22 – 0:10:29 We have built a computer winter lessons from analog components,
0:10:29 – 0:10:33 First in tubes, then out of transistors.
0:10:33 – 0:10:37 We killed it ourselves.
0:10:37 – 0:10:45 And then I spent three months working on the project and many other things.
0:10:45 – 0:10:52 I liked it so much and it was a lot of resentment.
0:10:52 – 0:10:56 I was with my classmates and I was already an adult.
0:10:56 – 0:11:02 During my studies, it was no different.
0:11:03 – 0:11:07 So the classmates just realized,
0:11:07 – 0:11:14 I get bored most of the time and have time for nonsense.
0:11:14 – 0:11:17 You really don't have to do anything.
0:11:17 – 0:11:24 Yes, even as I did the elderly care
0:11:24 – 0:11:31 and then all the medical expertise and all the technical terms,
0:11:32 – 0:11:38 Latin or ancient Greek, they all fell into my lap,
0:11:38 – 0:11:44 I read it once, read it a second time, and then I remembered it.
0:11:44 – 0:11:50 My preparation for exams was always like this,
0:11:50 – 0:11:53 I read it one night before,
0:11:53 – 0:11:57 Which I've never dealt with before, and then I could.
0:11:58 – 0:12:02 I wouldn't say now that it's a photographic memory,
0:12:02 – 0:12:07 But it is a memory that reproduces content.
0:12:07 – 0:12:13 Not literally, but in terms of images, but in terms of content.
0:12:13 – 0:12:19 I've always thought of it as cheating.
0:12:19 – 0:12:24 For example, my mother didn't see a single graduation from me.
0:12:25 – 0:12:30 So by the time I was 18, it had been clear that I had to sign the testimony.
0:12:30 – 0:12:37 And then I was able to do it myself and no one has seen it since.
0:12:37 – 0:12:44 And even if my special achievements were mentioned
0:12:44 – 0:12:47 or I was excellent, it was rather unpleasant for me,
0:12:47 – 0:12:54 Because I always felt like I was cheating because I never did anything about it.
0:12:54 – 0:13:05 And I also believe that the envy or doubt of others has added to it,
0:13:05 – 0:13:08 I'm extremely unsure of what that is.
0:13:08 – 0:13:11 The experience of being a dyslexic,
0:13:11 – 0:13:19 that I already think differently about problems and find solutions to problems,
0:13:19 – 0:13:22 Don't come to the other one at all.
0:13:23 – 0:13:28 And by doing so, I am always reduced to the fact that I
0:13:28 – 0:13:34 – You can't read and write correctly, but you talk like a professor –
0:13:34 – 0:13:38 always reduced to things you do wrong and error measure.
0:13:38 – 0:13:47 And I see how many people go through life like this and make fundamental mistakes
0:13:47 – 0:13:51 And they don't give a shit.
0:13:52 – 0:13:56 For me, it's always a half-collapse when something doesn't work.
0:13:56 – 0:14:03 In any case, I think that it has led me to simply
0:14:03 – 0:14:13 Put my light very far under the bushel and then don't go peddling with it.
0:14:13 – 0:14:17 I'm doing a podcast with other colleagues about music
0:14:18 – 0:14:21 And there's been a few hints lately,
0:14:21 – 0:14:25 that I stayed out of certain topics and didn't say anything more,
0:14:25 – 0:14:30 I have completed my studies in the fields.
0:14:30 – 0:14:33 I didn't just study this,
0:14:33 – 0:14:41 I had a lot of time after the stroke and had to go through a crisis of meaning.
0:14:41 – 0:14:44 And then, out of boredom, I studied a little more.
0:14:45 – 0:14:53 I have completed three more courses since then.
0:14:53 – 0:15:03 And in any case, although I have a degree in this and the area,
0:15:03 – 0:15:06 I didn't say anything about it, and I said,
0:15:06 – 0:15:14 that I am careful with what I say and how I say it and when I say what,
0:15:14 – 0:15:18 I don't want to be exmatriculated post-human.
0:15:18 – 0:15:24 Of course, that was the gag, but taken as a basic opportunity, that's still the fear,
0:15:24 – 0:15:33 when I present my true potential and show that I then get problems.
0:15:33 – 0:15:39 In my spare time, I sometimes deal with topics,
0:15:40 – 0:15:44 I can only really talk about very few people.
0:15:44 – 0:15:49 I built a tunnel scanning microscope when I was 16.
0:15:49 – 0:15:58 Others only do this when they are in their mid-20s, because they need it for their studies or are researching it.
0:15:58 – 0:16:02 With the tunnel scanning microscope you can make atoms visible,
0:16:03 – 0:16:10 because you just take advantage of a physical effect that when you use a tip of tungsten,
0:16:10 – 0:16:16 where the tip is only one atom in diameter, approaches very close to the test object,
0:16:16 – 0:16:21 A stream of tunnels will flow and if you are now able to
0:16:21 – 0:16:26 very finely gridded over the test piece to go over it,
0:16:26 – 0:16:32 You can measure the tunnel current, the strength and generate an image from it.
0:16:32 – 0:16:38 That's what I built back then with amplifier stages and so on,
0:16:38 – 0:16:42 Without there being any noise.
0:16:42 – 0:16:45 It was an annual work.
0:16:45 – 0:16:50 It was a year of work and research.
0:16:50 – 0:16:55 That's what I did next to school.
0:16:56 – 0:17:03 Had, of course, been a complete success and far above what one is otherwise so accustomed to,
0:17:03 – 0:17:10 When students have completed a year's work.
0:17:10 – 0:17:16 There are so many things. I once had to build a computer-controlled traffic light system.
0:17:16 – 0:17:21 Of course I did that too and craftsmanship was not so perfect now,
0:17:22 – 0:17:28 but it was a software and then the headmaster and also the teacher said,
0:17:28 – 0:17:33 It's way above what you understand.
0:17:33 – 0:17:40 For me, these were just things. I did this on a weekend.
0:17:40 – 0:17:45 I built the model for the traffic light system one weekend
0:17:45 – 0:17:50 and the software written and the electronics made.
0:17:51 – 0:17:55 And that's how it's been so often in my life.
0:17:55 – 0:18:01 I did everything on the last pusher and dealt with many other things.
0:18:01 – 0:18:09 And yes, you would think that I am particularly successful.
0:18:09 – 0:18:12 Quite the contrary.
0:18:12 – 0:18:18 Since my stroke and the long period of my training
0:18:19 – 0:18:23 I had a disability pension, which is at the level of citizen's money.
0:18:23 – 0:18:27 And I'm glad that the citizen's money has been increased,
0:18:27 – 0:18:34 Because now I don't pay a radio fee anymore, because I'm pretty much in this area.
0:18:34 – 0:18:47 You can see that with the possibilities that are given to us on the way,
0:18:48 – 0:18:58 are not always very successful, that this is not promising and you can fail.
0:18:58 – 0:19:04 I don't see myself as a failure now because I have no money
0:19:04 – 0:19:14 and live a low-level life and depend on support,
0:19:15 – 0:19:21 In many ways also financially that I have so much time,
0:19:21 – 0:19:25 Now I can focus on the things that interest me.
0:19:25 – 0:19:30 And after the stroke I had had so much free time,
0:19:30 – 0:19:33 I still have things that interest me.
0:19:33 – 0:19:44 And not because I somehow had ambitions, could study and could earn degrees.
0:19:44 – 0:19:50 Even at a time when I also have financial independence,
0:19:50 – 0:19:53 What other people can only dream of.
0:19:53 – 0:20:03 You can see, even if I'm not the super successful person now,
0:20:03 – 0:20:10 that I have found my peace, although I am still cautious,
0:20:11 – 0:20:14 I want to show my potential or not.
0:20:14 – 0:20:20 In fact, it's almost automated for me.
0:20:20 – 0:20:25 that I make grammatical mistakes in the pronunciation,
0:20:25 – 0:20:35 that I use wrong forms or make mistakes in singular plural,
0:20:35 – 0:20:37 In other words, one and the majority and such things.
0:20:38 – 0:20:43 This has just crept in as automatism, so as not to stand out.
0:20:43 – 0:20:55 These days, if you're someone who's smart and also above average smart,
0:20:55 – 0:21:00 then you have the opportunity to be reasonably encouraged.
0:21:01 – 0:21:11 In my time it had been, I was about to be sent to a special school for the learning disabled,
0:21:11 – 0:21:16 Because I was so bored at school,
0:21:16 – 0:21:21 that I have dealt with all sorts of other things,
0:21:21 – 0:21:26 Follow them as you count to 10.
0:21:27 – 0:21:36 It's unbelievable! And that only so much later the true potential was discovered in me.
0:21:36 – 0:21:43 I remember where I was in one of the schools.
0:21:43 – 0:21:50 in the vocational college, more precisely to have a drawing copy certified,
0:21:51 – 0:21:58 that the teachers I met were happy to see me,
0:21:58 – 0:22:04 Because it's a positive example of that.
0:22:04 – 0:22:13 If they had known how lazy I was then and I did some homework on the board,
0:22:13 – 0:22:18 'Cause I didn't really work things out at home,
0:22:19 – 0:22:25 But when it came to mathematics, I could write that on the board.
0:22:25 – 0:22:37 It was such a personal conversation with you.
0:22:37 – 0:22:43 I've monologued and told you a little bit about it.
0:22:44 – 0:22:51 I hope you don't bother me that now I don't know how deviant I am,
0:22:51 – 0:22:56 as I like to do otherwise, but this time I stayed there,
0:22:56 – 0:23:05 That's because there has to be a change in our education policy.
0:23:06 – 0:23:16 Children are not all the same and I don't understand why a child at this and the age
0:23:16 – 0:23:22 or even if it is younger, with the number of months and lifetime,
0:23:22 – 0:23:27 You have to be able to do that because the average person can.
0:23:28 – 0:23:35 But I saw with my nephews that everyone was different
0:23:35 – 0:23:41 and one has developed more linguistically and that much faster than the other.
0:23:41 – 0:23:48 The other has developed motorically and then, although the other has roared like in the waterfall,
0:23:49 – 0:23:59 He was then able to sit on the bike, such a Tretrad, and is thus heated over the gravel road,
0:23:59 – 0:24:02 As if he had never done anything else.
0:24:02 – 0:24:12 The other could not, and as individual as the children are, so should education be seen,
0:24:12 – 0:24:17 because education is not just the blunt memorization of facts and figures,
0:24:18 – 0:24:24 But also the understanding of what is behind it, why some processes are as they are.
0:24:24 – 0:24:29 Of course, when I make history, you have to know facts and figures,
0:24:29 – 0:24:34 But there are also reasons why something has led to something.
0:24:34 – 0:24:40 The French Revolution didn't just happen, by itself.
0:24:40 – 0:24:44 There was a story before and
0:24:44 – 0:24:54 This is also the case with children or young adults.
0:24:54 – 0:25:07 I was once in an institution during my studies, where it was just about reintegration
0:25:08 – 0:25:17 I was told that I was speaking differently as I write.
0:25:17 – 0:25:22 There was a lot of confusion in the college.
0:25:22 – 0:25:29 I had to explain to myself that I was a dyslexic.
0:25:30 – 0:25:38 Adults can handle it better than other children.
0:25:38 – 0:25:46 especially at the age of the adult, in the adolescent years,
0:25:46 – 0:25:51 where you try to find yourself and compare yourself with others
0:25:51 – 0:25:59 and everything that is different from normality, strange, you stand out with it extremely
0:25:59 – 0:26:08 The injury and the time left a strong mark on me.
0:26:08 – 0:26:13 I saw a documentary a while ago.
0:26:13 – 0:26:17 about a school for the gifted, which is a boarding school,
0:26:17 – 0:26:24 where young people, instead of what young people usually do,
0:26:25 – 0:26:32 Time to kill and do some distracting things,
0:26:32 – 0:26:39 I really enjoyed dealing with complex issues and having fun with them.
0:26:39 – 0:26:46 Some have learned Japanese, others have practiced chess,
0:26:47 – 0:26:54 But then not normal, but already x-trains in advance.
0:26:54 – 0:27:02 It was done scientifically and that was the first time I thought,
0:27:02 – 0:27:06 You should have had that back then.
0:27:06 – 0:27:13 You shouldn't have had that outsider feeling.
0:27:14 – 0:27:21 Of course, people came to me if they had a problem at school or while studying,
0:27:21 – 0:27:36 But because of my talent, my curse, I never felt right about it.
0:27:36 – 0:27:42 Well, on my second round, where I studied, after the stroke,
0:27:43 – 0:27:45 Much was no longer possible.
0:27:45 – 0:27:49 I'm mostly hustled around the area with a wheelchair
0:27:49 – 0:27:54 I studied a lot at home and had little contact with my fellow students.
0:27:54 – 0:27:59 except for the mandatory events where you have to be present.
0:27:59 – 0:28:04 That wasn't the issue now.
0:28:04 – 0:28:09 But at the first study, I had already noticed,
0:28:10 – 0:28:16 there was partying and doing and so on and I preferred to sit in the lab
0:28:16 – 0:28:20 I did my research and that led to
0:28:20 – 0:28:25 that I was finished much faster than my fellow students,
0:28:25 – 0:28:29 They needed a few more semesters.
0:28:29 – 0:28:39 Yes, that was really a monologue and I'm a bit split off at the end.
0:28:39 – 0:28:45 Thank you for listening and I would be glad to hear from you.
0:28:45 – 0:28:49 If you turn it on again next time,
0:28:49 – 0:28:56 if it's called "The Digression" or any other format here on the sound radio,
0:28:56 – 0:28:59 the publication cartel.
0:28:59 – 0:29:05 Yes, I say thank you and say goodbye, your Sascha.
0:29:05 – 0:29:21 [Music]
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Description:

Hello and welcome to a new edition of the digression, the podcast in which I, Sascha Markmann, delightfully and almost always deviate from the actual topic. Today I decided on a topic for which I have not yet found a perfect title. Perhaps “The Hidden Treasure – Living with giftedness“ best.

Giftedness – a blessing and a curse at the same time. Living with extraordinary talent is often marked by unique opportunities and challenges. On the one hand, opportunities open up that remain closed to most people; On the other hand, social isolation and high expectations can become a burden. Finding the balance between these extremes requires not only intellectual strength, but also emotional resilience and social skills. Thus, giftedness is not only a gift, but also a complex task that enriches and demands life in many ways.

In this episode, I'll tell you why I often don't carry my education and skills outwards and rarely talk about them. My story begins in the regular school, where it quickly became clear that something is different with me. An examination at the health department found that I was highly gifted and the normal schools were not suitable for me. So I found my way to Waldorf school, which, then and now, offers other opportunities to children with special needs.

Despite my talent, I repeatedly encountered challenges, such as dyslexia, which made learning difficult for me. Through targeted support and smaller classes, I finally found my way and experienced a turning point in sixth grade that changed everything.

My further education led me to various schools, a vocational training as an electrician and several degrees. But despite my successes, I preferred to put my light under the bushel and hide my abilities. Experiences of bullying and resentment shaped me and made me become cautious.

In this episode, I reflect on education policy, the individual needs of children, and my own experiences that have shown me that not every extraordinary talent automatically leads to a successful and fulfilled life.

Let's dive together into the world of giftedness and the challenges that come with it. I hope you find my story interesting and realize that it is important to promote and support children in their uniqueness.

I would like to thank you for listening, and I am happy if you turn on again next time, when it says ‘Die Abschweifung’ or another format here on Lautfunk, the publication cartel.

Your Sasha.