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Limiting, the borderline podcast.
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Controversial topics, heatedly discussed and beautifully packaged.
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Discuss heatedly with my guests in an exciting format.
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Definitely, the podcast.
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Hello and welcome to the borderline podcast, where it gets slippery, slimy and borderline every now and then.
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I am the Sascha Mahrmann, also known as the Space Wave and have the dear MTC, Marcel, as a guest today.
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Moin Sascha, I'm the MTC and I noticed a topic, recently from a viewer.
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I chose you as the perfect podcast partner because you also have a few testimonials.
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Let's talk about polyamory. Polyamory is when one is not monogamous, i.e. living together, loves one another, but has several partners.
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And that's what we're going to talk about today, sometimes also about the topic, whether it's sexual or just romantic or open relationship.
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We're going to talk about it a bit in this podcast.
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This is a very, very, I wouldn't say morally reprehensible subject, but there are still very, very many people who say,
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Oh no, let's be good, that can't go and so on. Yes, that can go.
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And yes, pro and contra, let's see how the conversation goes today.
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Yeah, you wanna start there? What are your experiences like in your life?
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Have you always or never had something like this or has it evolved? How was that with you?
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I used to be in a polyamorous relationship, but that hadn't been the way I was now the part that brought several people into relationship with,
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because that's yes, maybe you should do a little bit, that's not just about sex, because then it could just lead open relationships or know what,
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The point is that there is an emotionality. And I've never really felt the need for it before.
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I've been in love with two different women at one time. I've seen that before.
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That was so, I just met two women and dated both and then I realized,
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Oh yeah, you love both women now, and I ended up choosing one.
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Even after I talked to important people about it, they said so,
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Boy, you should decide. In the relationship where I was, my partner had met a second man in the course of our relationship,
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He also lived farther away and we had agreed that she would be with me for two weeks and that she would be with you for two weeks.
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And yes, these are my experiences.
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So I actually always, how can I say, expressed this opinion at that time, yes that can't be at all.
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And I had in my last active relationship, actually that was a long-distance relationship, I had the feeling in the meantime,
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that I still love my ex-girlfriends, not the way you love a current partner,
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but some past-me inside of me still has, through the memories and so on and nostalgia and so on,
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Still had feelings for them somehow. But not so that I would have said now,
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Okay, I'd be cheating on my girlfriend at the time or something.
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So you can kind of equate that with memories, whether that's a true love or not, you don't know.
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I'm just saying, some I in me still had feelings for them,
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But not as current feelings as now for a current partnership.
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And I had my first girlfriend at the time, for example, so you can start.
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That was a very, very monogrammed relationship and that was all right.
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Only at some point did the point come, I remember, as if it had been yesterday, then she asked me,
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that was after a year, that was my first girlfriend, she meant to me,
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You know, sometimes I wonder what it's like to have something with other partners, with other people.
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And that was for me at that time like a slap in the stomach pit just because I thought,
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Okay, is that what she's trying to tell me is that she wants to cheat? And I don't think she wanted to tell me that.
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She just wanted to know by the fact that it was the first time as it actually is with other people and so on and so forth.
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And you ask yourself such a question quite early and for me it was just a no-go.
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I panicked at the time and the relationship was still monogamous until the end.
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And my second relationship, which was also very monogamous and actually was every one of my,
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Every relationship I had was monogamous. So they loved each other.
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So a classic relationship, man, woman and nothing else. Exclusivity.
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Exactly, you just slept with each other, you talked about everything, you loved each other.
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And not even flirting was somehow a thing in the relationship, neither for me nor for the partner.
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That was the case in every respect. Flirting was absolutely not in there.
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And for me it was always okay. I felt good and comfortable with it.
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And according to my experience, I now say that the ex-girlfriends of me were also completely satisfied with it.
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And I still had that opinion to this day, so still today.
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I know you're a little bit different on that point, but I'm still like that to this day,
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Maybe I'm too fraternal for it, I don't know, maybe it will come someday.
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For me, it's always been like this when I'm in a relationship and invest feelings purely,
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then I have no interest in having something with another woman and can't accept it either.
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If my partner in the case has bucks on someone else, whether that would be somehow romantic or just sex or something,
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That would be a reason for separation for me.
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First of all, the thing is, we're not talking about any affairs today,
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But these are usually open relationships, where this has also been agreed upon.
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Holy Amourie, people know each other.
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Everyone knows that.
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That's right, that's right. So everyone knows that, everyone actually agrees with that, and that's fine with people.
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I would see myself as a couple who is still monogamous and who has grown up and I live healthy with it and I feel good with it.
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Anything else would be in a relationship for me if I felt love, that would ruin me.
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I'm not like I'd say, yeah, come on, that little bit of sex my partner has with someone,
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That's not bad, so it's okay, the main thing is she loves me.
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Any kind of flirting and good flirting, that's, I say, if someone flirts on a certain level, that can still be fine.
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But everything with really massive dredging and kissing here and there and you know, so this extreme closeness up to sex,
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That's for me in a relationship, that would emotionally ruin me if I learned about it.
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That's why I find it unhealthy, at least for me.
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What are your experiences with this?
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I'm a little bit different, so again so short, I was with relationships in the swinger club,
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I've had threesomes, foursomes, with one man, with a couple, with two men and even more.
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And I've always thought, you know, you can pound my girlfriend, but I'll take her home.
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Can you understand me there?
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I can understand you there. I believe in myself or in many others, but I just speak for myself now,
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I think why this is a no-go for us, for people like us, is because maybe you have this jealousy scene in your head,
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in good German, he fucks you now better than I do, as an example.
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I think that's sexual, the first point.
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The second point is just this romantic, you are always afraid, so at least with me it is so.
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Apart from my first relationship, I was never the jealous person who forbade anything or anything.
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I think it's very, very toxic indeed.
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You know, I always make videos on TikTok and YouTube against these "coaches", flirting coaches.
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We've already talked about that.
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I've done a podcast before, very interesting indeed.
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But the thing is, I just think so, I'm such a person, I have very, very strong fears of loss.
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I'm not letting them out anymore.
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I do this with myself and finish it.
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I also set my limits there.
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Oh God, that was ten years ago, when I already set the limits, because I know,
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Fear of loss and jealousy, that ruins a person, you can't bring that.
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Oh, yeah, that's totally toxic.
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And I think you can't do that.
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You don't have a human.
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The person is yours, but it's not yours at the moment.
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And you just said that you have had a lot of experiences, so sexual experiences,
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where you knew then at the end of the day, okay, this woman you take home.
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And was that, I mean, you have to say, we have an age difference of 15, 16 years.
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And you once said in a private audio, maybe that's coming to you with the years,
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That you think it's okay. And has that always been the case with you?
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No, no, no.
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So let's just say that I am, as far as sexuality and the thing about women is concerned,
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Quite a late lighter. My first real relationship, wherever it went,
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That was the case at 26. There used to be one-night stands or something like that.
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But really, I couldn't imagine that I could fall in love with a woman.
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So that was so. But there are other reasons for this, maybe we can do it somewhere.
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Discuss in another podcast. And I was really straight, monogamous.
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And I couldn't have imagined that either. And I just have my relationships
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I've seen it over and over again in the past, or even when I've seen a few friends,
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Even with my own family, my parents have also divorced,
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Because my mother has cheated several times that there is just such a discrepancy.
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People leave strangers because they miss something or have some desires,
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which are somehow not fulfilled and still have their "monogame",
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It's a classic relationship with exclusivity, but it takes away the right to give away.
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When we are in nature and look at it like this, actually all the animals are,
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Those who are smart enough to have a relationship are only together for a certain amount of time.
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So you meet, produce children, and then people break up again.
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And monogamy in the real sense that I have a relationship that really lasts for years,
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Decades, a lifetime, this is super rare in nature with the animals.
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Of course, there are a few specimens, classically storks or something,
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There are many others, but there are those who once fell in love,
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They stay together for a lifetime. This is also the case with penguins.
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There's this sweet story about the penguin who fell in love with his caretaker.
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If there was a female penguin, it was more interesting than the nurse.
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Where was I? Monogamy is rare.
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And there are, I don't know what the monkeys are called,
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a genus of monkeys when the stress is in their group,
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Then there is Rambasamba. And if they all had Rambasamba,
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then the pressure is gone, everyone is happy and the mood in the group is peaceful again.
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This example now with the monkeys reminds me a bit of my one toxic relationship.
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Yeah, that's what it said.
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I also made one or two YouTube videos about toxic relationships.
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And there it was. From a relationship point of view, it was totally inharmonious.
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They fought very, very often, and very often disagreed.
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Very, very many disagreements, it was also very dramatic.
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But whenever there was a dispute, usually from their side, which provokes it out of the way,
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When you had sex together, it was okay.
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So they loved each other again, as if nothing had happened, no quarrel, all right, laughed.
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And they were happy and satisfied.
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And this kind of toxic relationship isn't something I'd prefer now
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Or prioritize, of course.
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But you also get used to this toxic splint.
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And despite this experience, I say now, I would not prefer it in the current state,
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If I had a partner now that she's sleeping with someone else,
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Because you think, okay, maybe he loves better than me.
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So love in the sense of, whether sex or emotional or something.
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I also have these fears of loss.
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One hears again and again in society, yes, grandma and grandpa,
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They've been together for 40, 50, 60 years.
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And I hear again and again, I was once on the road for a time in the geriatric care service,
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Everyday caregivers, not elderly care.
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It was about the same.
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However, we have seen the elderly.
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I talked to people very, very often.
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There were a lot of people there.
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They just said, well, okay, love, it's just there.
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It weakens.
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It's changing.
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It loses color.
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But you stay together, because at that time it was still so,
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It was repaired and not thrown away.
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They were there for each other and solved the problems.
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You were just one, you were a family and that was standard.
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And these days, whether you feel that now for good or for bad,
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That's the way it is these days, uh, we're having problems with each other.
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We talk about it or we don't talk about it.
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And the second, third time fight or something,
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You lose your feelings and laugh at a new person.
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and has directly infiltrated another 50 contacts in the mobile phone,
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To which one could go, whether sexually, emotionally or something like that.
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This kind of bond exists.
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At least not in some situations anymore.
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And I'm just team old-fashioned on that point, maybe a little brother.
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I don't know.
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I couldn't imagine it now.
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Maybe someday.
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I can say that.
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I can't look to the future.
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So I can tell you that this classic role model,
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Man, woman, this family picture and you stay together for a lifetime and so on.
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This had its peak phase in the 50s, 60s.
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After that, this was done, because then there were also alternative life forms,
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As far as relationships are concerned, they have become more and more important in society.
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There was Mirella, huh?
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Oh, I don't know.
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I don't care about her name, I think.
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Exactly.
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She made a nice video now, where it's all about mommy influencers.
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Was that her or Alice Yetcho?
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No, that was her.
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And then, I'll put that into the show notes, she had briefly touched on the topic,
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That it is no longer common today, this typical role model and so on.
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And just as this role model of the family and man and woman and so on has changed,
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Forms of relationships have also changed.
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I mean, there's really everything.
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Where the partner is unfamiliar and he knows it, but is allowed to watch as much as possible
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or locked in a cage, until, oh, you haven't seen,
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I don't know, this is such a huge area, what there is and any inclinations.
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We want to stay with Pouli Amoury.
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It had been so with me, I had never felt the need to live it out for me now,
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Because I was completely happy with the women I've ever been with.
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There were no other desires.
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Of course, every now and then you see a woman on the street and then you think,
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It's hot, so it might be.
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Every now and then, when you had a foursome with another couple,
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You've had something with another woman.
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That's something else, that was sex.
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I can separate love and sex, fortunately.
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But really deep love, I would have, so I have an exclusivity.
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I can tolerate it because I know and feel it.
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If my partner says, there is now, let's say Stefan.
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And Stefan is a really great person and that's how something develops.
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Then I can give her that feeling and that happiness.
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I have a bit of jealousy or something.
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But when you realize what you're worth, what you can give to your wife, girlfriend
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and you know that she knows what she has about you,
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Then you don't have to worry about him leaving.
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Because then she would have left before.
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There are so many thousands of occasions where you meet someone by chance or so on
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Or get in the way of finding someone new very quickly.
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I had already been in an affair with a married woman.
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The good man knew nothing.
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Welcome to the club, I had once, but keep talking.
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Like I said, there is everything.
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There must always be two people there.
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And when people take it all in secret,
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because they have the need for sex or maybe the excitement or something else,
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That's shit.
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Why can't this be communicated openly?
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And if there is this principle, polyamory,
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where there really is in the name yes, poly for multiple and amorie for love,
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This is not just on the sexual level.
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The other thing is, I'm Polygan.
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I have multiple wives, multiple sex partners, and so on.
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There's love in there.
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It's about loving several people.
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And then I always hear when I direct the conversation to it,
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I can't do that.
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I can't do that.
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Of course you can.
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You love your parents differently than your partner.
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You love your children when you have them, unlike your partner or like your parents.
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You have different feelings, sometimes more, sometimes less, in every partnership.
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That's the way it is.
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And why, if you are open to it, should you close yourself?
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Just because there are social norms.
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I think you mentioned that you can love different people.
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So I definitely agree with that.
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The problem is, and I've noticed that with a lot of people,
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A person is like that, most people at least, they are in love,
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then they love, are in a relationship, this, that, live that out.
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And at some point, the time comes when love wears off, bit by bit.
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And you just split up.
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Whether one separates now in the good or not in the good, that is up to everyone.
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But you separate.
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And for most people, it's like, okay, out of sight, out of mind,
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It was once a chapter in my life.
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According to psychologists and generally socially, this is the healthy variant.
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In my case, as already mentioned, I lead at some point,
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It takes me months or years to bring a new person into my life.
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I'll tell you now.
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And when I'm ready, I love the person and I'm faithful to the person
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And I also have this idea that even if you argue or something,
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I want to clear it up and fix it.
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That's how I am.
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But, as mentioned earlier, the ex-partner,
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They are, they are some chapter in my life and I am no longer with them.
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Don't love them anymore.
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But some part of me, purely emotionally, still loves it.
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I can't tell you at my best if this has such a dramatic background,
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I'm so into drama and somehow.
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I'm such a person when I'm in a relationship.
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She can be so good and happy.
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I'm such a person, I listen to break-up songs and imagine the worst for the relationship,
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just that I feel this music about separations more at the moment,
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because I had more to do with the subject of separations than,
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EY, this really stays stable for a few years now, the relationship and it also stays healthy.
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Maybe it's because I somehow,
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I don't love that person anymore, it's not like that.
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But some part of me is still in love.
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Or I'm, let's say, I'm in love with the thought,
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When I was happy with these people.
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Maybe that's just, I don't know, that's probably one thing,
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This may be an issue in its own right.
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Maybe it has nothing to do with love or anything like that.
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I'm also faithful to people, it's not like that.
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I mean, if you're a polygamist or you're a polyamory now
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or feel it or live it out, I say now,
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It has nothing to do with cheating or cheating.
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These are all things that are addressed by everyone,
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In any case, officially so, yes, so you live it out
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And people know about it.
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And this thing is really, look,
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I'm sure the viewers will be interested.
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We can ask each other two or three questions.
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'Cause you're more like that, and I'm more like that,
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I'm not against saying,
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Okay, anyone who's in favor of it now is bad in my eyes,
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Not so, I'm against it just for myself.
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I'd love to know you're in a relationship right now.
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and you love each other and you get super clear and so on.
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And that thing is, just imagine, there's some kind of guy,
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she's met some guy now, Stefan's name is now,
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As with you, that means Stefan now and she says so,
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You know what, Stefan, look, pretty guy anyway
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and is also totally nice and kind to me and a friendly guy,
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He has a lot of hobbies and is very interesting.
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I could imagine starting something with him.
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But stay with you and continue to love you.
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How would you react to that?
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Would you say, okay, I need some time to think,
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Or would you say, yes, of course, I like it?
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Get fit, it's clear.
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Are you fit?
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And you said you can separate love and sex.
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That thing is, we can also wander away for a short time,
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It's not a digression, but...
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Yeah, I'm talking alone.
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Yes, that's right, that's right.
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We can go back to this thing for a moment.
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So basically you're right, sex and love can be separated.
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But for me it was always such a thing,
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There have been times when I've been bored.
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And I just said, no, watch out, I'm single right now,
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But I'm not going to start with a woman.
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Because I'm not in love with the woman.
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Why could I use the...
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I could never have sex with a woman I don't love.
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It used to be more pronounced than it is now.
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I mean, I'm like, maybe that's a head thing with me,
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I'd be ready to start something with a woman.
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Which I don't love because it's happened two or three times in my life.
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that something has developed, let's say so,
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Purely sexual, not emotional.
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And yet it is with me at the end of the day,
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Even if my head says yes first, go fit,
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At the end of the day, I build up a lot of obstacles.
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For whatever reason, something in me, we talked privately about last time.
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I think I should be on drugs or on alcohol,
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that I'd say, okay, you could do it,
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I mean, I'm single and I mean, that's just sex and not love.
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And yet, despite alcohol or drugs, my head will say,
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Just before it's ready, no, it's not fit.
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And I mean, to say it a little bit through the flowers now,
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If your body says no, you can't say yes.
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So that's, you know what I mean, so to the listeners,
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If your body doesn't have a goat on birds, you can't force it.
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I mean, you can get meds or something that doesn't...
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Yeah, but still, that's a head thing.
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You know what I mean.
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The brain is the brain.
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And if there's no stimulus because you're uptight inside, you're cramped,
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If it doesn't work for you, for whatever reason, then you can't force an erection.
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This is about the erection.
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And that's, it used to be that kind of thing, yeah, you get that at 50 or something.
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There are young people who have problems with this, just stop,
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I know so many guys who watch each other from time to time.
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I often write with girls.
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Which I know through YouTube or Discord or when gambling, for example.
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They usually have professional photographers or something like that.
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And I have two or three friends, male friends,
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Then they say, boah, is this a pretty woman, isn't there anything going on with you?
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Or something like that. And then I say, yes, no, nothing has to go.
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And then they always say something like,
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Yeah, so if that was my best friend or a good friend of mine,
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I would definitely go there as a man and so on.
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And I'm there, so I'm not brothers on that point now.
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I'm not saying I don't have sexual thoughts or anything like that.
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or have fantasies for something like that, if you get along well and so on.
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But I'm just a little bit, ah, no, yeah, is a pretty,
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It's attractive, but yes, I don't know, I'm very unsure.
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You've already raised the point, so you called it jammed.
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Would you call it jammed?
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No, no, no. You have limits in your mind.
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You can call it jammed or something.
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0:28:03 – 0:28:06
Stuck may have broken down a bit, simplified.
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You have limits in your head and you can't go over them.
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You can't force it or anything.
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Either you grow in there and push those boundaries
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Or you have to live with the boundaries.
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So you say if there's nothing or something, it's not possible.
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So it's not like when I see a naked woman,
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immediately have an erection and drool and grind back there.
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No, if this is a woman I find appealing,
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I'll take a look at it, get one, and that's good.
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That I'm just willing to mate, to put it this way,
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It takes a little more and I need a mindset.
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So the attitude, the atmosphere, a romance.
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Even with one-night stands, I need some kind of romance.
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And I mean, I can't have sex with a woman either,
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If I don't feel anything.
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So no love, but the woman must be interesting.
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Something about the woman has to inspire me.
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That must trigger my head cinema.
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It can be a smile, it can be a look,
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that can be a beautiful bosom, that can be her figure.
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Something I like so much about these people right now.
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And I can take a moment,
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It was the same with every one of my friends or ex-girlfriends.
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With my current girlfriend, it was really like that.
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This totally crazy, open kind of her that totally flashed me.
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Even if I'm like this now, yes, that's the one here,
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He talks about everything so openly and so on.
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In real life, I'm very closed.
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I am communicative, but I am very closed.
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And I found that so fascinating.
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The first time we woven, she said, you know what,
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I'll take you in the bathtub now.
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Then she put the webcam, or her mobile phone, so to speak,
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I could see almost everything in the bathtub.
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And yes, I mean, I liked what I saw there.
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And to bring this, but only this action,
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And she just said so, yeah, then you know exactly,
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who you need to meet us, what you're getting into.
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That blew me away.
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So not the nudity per se, but just that it was so open, you know?
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You have to say, I am a paramedic and geriatric nurse, among other things, from the profession.
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I've seen so many naked people in my life.
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Yeah, that's not interesting anymore.
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That's meat, skin, fat, tissue.
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The anatomy.
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Exactly, therefore.
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But to the one point you mentioned earlier,
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You had asked the question, if they would now rank and say,
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You, there's someone that I find so interesting,
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Maybe a little more could happen.
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You know, even though that might be problematic at first,
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openness is no better in terms of how to make it secret,
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Because in that case, yes, I'm cheating, I'm cheating.
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And the other is okay, it's communicated.
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You can't stop it.
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If your girlfriend/wife wants to cheat, she'll do it.
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When a partner does that.
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You can't stop it unless you chain it up in the apartment.
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It's better to go there and communicate.
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And with my current girlfriend, for example,
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We talk a lot about feelings and things like that.
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I know exactly how much she loves me.
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And if she said, "You, there's another person."
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That would be perfectly fine for me.
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You said earlier that you can separate love and sex.
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I've already asked the question.
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As an example, it does not have to mean that this is the case,
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But only as an example, because I am interested in the question itself.
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For example, if your girlfriend said,
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Beware of other questions,
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You have such a healthy relationship now.
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And now you're having sex two or three times a week,
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Maybe four or more times and it's all great.
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So far everything is really perfect, you talk, you communicate,
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You live out the thoughts and fantasies you have.
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and it's all really nice, harmonious, perfect.
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And then comes the day when this conversation takes place,
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Look, I met someone there, this, that, that.
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And you say so, yeah, okay, would go fit.
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And then, you might get to know the person,
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He has the same opinion as you, he says, yes, no, he's all right
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And you say, be careful, we make such an open thing out of it,
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talk about it and we have a multiple relationship
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Or a diverse relationship, I don't know.
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And then comes the day when your girlfriend no longer sleeps with you,
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where she may no longer make you feel
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that you are attractive, but already with him and she communicates it with you,
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Because it's okay for you, too.
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And she says, ey, watch out, yesterday we had something, that was totally horny,
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I've never seen this happen to a man or anything like that.
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How about you then, would you say, yes, go full fit
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Or would you think in your head, huh?
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So, I can tell you, this actually happened to me
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in my last relationship.
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She came back to me after two weeks,
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We talked about how it was and so on.
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I mean, we talked on the phone every day and wrote in between,
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Not that she was gone for two weeks.
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and then always stop from zero to 100,
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It's written, phoned, and so on.
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She said she was impressed,
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because there was a situation with a neighbor where there was stress,
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Where he put himself in front of her protectively.
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And that impresses her improbably.
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She has never experienced anything like this in her life.
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It must be said that at that time I had to deal with the consequences.
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Struggling from a stroke, pretty acute,
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That was just like that, yes, three-quarters of a year ago.
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And yes, there were certain activities, walking or so on,
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It was not possible at the time.
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And of course I gave it all to her,
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She can experience a lot of things.
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And as they were with them, there was this situation.
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He was protective of her.
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And that impressed her so much.
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And then I thought it was all a little less.
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It was clear to me that she had the choice,
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that they are now with the other men, let's call him Stephan,
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I want a stronger relationship as it is now.
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And of course I was already struggling with heartbreak and so on.
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And it took me half a year to get over it.
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As I said, to get back to your question,
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The woman made the decision for herself.
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At some point, it was clear to her that these feelings had shifted.
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And this Polyamore affair has been going on for a long time.
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That hadn't been that it was "We're opening up the relationship now,
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Now Polyamore, three months later, zack, that's it.
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No, that really went on for a very long time.
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And yes, I really had to crack at this loss of relationship.
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Because you, that's the thing, you go, if you do this open relationship thing,
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I don't know, let's just call it an open relationship.
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As a partner, you take that risk, too.
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that at some point in the course of the relationship or relationships,
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I don't know, this multiple relationship, that anything could change,
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Losing a person. And when something like that comes,
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Surely there are people who live it.
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Those who don't worry at all.
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For example, there are men and women who think this way.
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Okay, we're just having sex one more time a week and not four more times.
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That's not true. Or the person doesn't give me one,
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I don't know, no more comments, like maybe before,
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Like a few months or years ago or something.
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And there are people who really have to work with such things in their minds.
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Because they think, ey, look, men are usually like that,
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Yeah, she's a stranger, she's got a different guy,
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He's hornier than me. And women are usually like that,
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Yes, he doesn't find me attractive anymore, he doesn't give me compliments anymore,
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He doesn't think I'm pretty anymore. They always go to their own ego,
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It's easy, my husband stops too, but men just think directly,
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Yes, she certainly has a new guy and isn't fit at all.
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And women are always like that, okay, he thinks I'm ugly.
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So if ever, if I had that jealousy earlier and heartbreak and stuff like that,
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When I feel like I'm losing a woman,
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I didn't think in any way, yeah, I'm just ugly,
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I'm sure she's found someone better than me.
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I never had that. I was always confident enough to know
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Watch out if she finds a guy she finds hornier than me,
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Then it's just like that. Surely there are women out there, too.
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the "greater", in quotes, or "pretty" or "better" fit me,
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Let's just say so. And I never had the feeling that with women it's always a bit like that,
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or it's not always like that, I know, but with women it's usually like that,
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Okay, he doesn't think I'm attractive anymore, okay, shit, what happened?
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You know, and when that phase comes, the sex gets less
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and the compliments are getting less and the conversations may not be more
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so intimate and so familiar, but rather so small talk and so a bit,
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so on, you know, as if you want to make a hook on your topic so quickly,
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To get rid of the issue, so. And there are people, and I'd be someone like that,
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If I ever decided to do something like that,
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or even if I don't do something like that, in a healthy, i.e. in a monogamous,
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not healthy in a monogamous relationship, even then I would feel
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Okay, certain things are falling out, okay, there, something has changed.
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They say yes, you can say something, I'd be interested,
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They say yes, when a man loses love, he says from now on,
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Watch out, somehow, there's a new one, I don't know,
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I'm sure there'll be something going on soon. It's always the case with women, men always say so,
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Yes, the woman, she didn't even talk to me, so, I didn't know,
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So, and the women always say, but, over the last few months, I've been
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Trying to explain to you in fragments, I don't like that about you, that's not okay,
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That's what I'm missing in the relationship, this, this, this, this, and that's where I can get my ex-relationship for a moment.
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I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I loved the person, I
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but I have this love through my depression and through my negative world
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in my head, where was not curable and not treated at that time,
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I couldn't show that love I had for her that way, plus long-distance relationship,
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It was a bit harder, and over the months.
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Again and again we had such small quarrels, in quotation marks,
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And she kept telling me, yeah, that you look so cold, that totally screws me up,
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It's so emotional that it breaks me down, and at some point the time came,
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She meant, from now on, no, be careful, that doesn't matter anymore,
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I have to end the relationship with you and also break off contact,
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We don't see each other anymore because the feelings I still have for you,
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They have to go, we can't see each other anymore, we're no longer friends,
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Or something like that, and as a man you think, okay, how did it come about now,
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'Cause I haven't noticed, it's always the case with women,
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from a bright sky, from now on the same, yes, this is indeed the case in most cases,
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and as a man you think so why, and with women it is usually so,
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It just comes in fragments, and I can't handle it either.
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Most women have such a mindset, and what is your attitude towards it?
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So, to put it briefly, I can still remember a quote from you,
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What you said to me about your last relationship, you said,
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"She's too good for me", this woman is too good for me, I don't understand,
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but it's too good for me, that's stuck so deep in my memory,
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because that sounded totally honest, so my experiences,
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So there is such a theory in psychology that a man does so every few months.
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evaluates the relationship, and is all right, okay, is less okay,
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then it gushes a little, and at a certain threshold,
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Then the relationship ends. I don't necessarily feel that way now,
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But this is a theory, and this is the case with women.
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This happens all the time, it's very constant. I can tell you,
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from my experience, for example now with my current girlfriend,
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There are times when you stop if it doesn't go well.
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if you're not doing well because there's something wrong with your health or body,
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Have less or no desire to have sex for a while.
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So I'm not talking about months now, but it's always been a week and a half,
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Three weeks or so. Sometimes she asks me this way,
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and then she looks at me with a very sad look and asks,
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Is everything all right? And then I always feel that way,
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There are also such extreme fears of loss.
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God, now I've lost the thread.
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Wait, maybe I can help you on the jumps.
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Let's go back to the quote, that's what I said.
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It wasn't so good for me, but that's also because
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I have already mentioned this in my example,
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I had a toxic relationship and I was used to it.
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Love is very, very shaky, but sex makes everything okay again.
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And in this relationship, with the long-distance relationship, it was rather the other way around.
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You could say anything, the love was all right, was stable.
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So you've already trusted yourself, just as the sex was, a little less.
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And there it came. For me it was at that time,
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0:43:03 – 0:43:06
You have to imagine when I was younger,
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My first and second relationship, if there really is,
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I'm pretty hobbyless, but that's how it was,
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with this toxic woman back then that I mentioned,
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I had with her, really that's not a lie,
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Sex every day, not just once. And they put out the pear...
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F... And that was just the way it was.
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And I got used to it. And as soon as there was nothing going on for two or three days,
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I thought to myself, what's wrong now?
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And I got older and more mature and more reasonable and adult.
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And in the last relationship, I mean, with the long-distance relationship,
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logically, this was often the case because of the long-distance relationship,
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Nothing for months. And when you were there,
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I wasn't at the push of a button. Okay, now I'm bucking.
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For me, it was always a head thing. And if I wasn't there with my head,
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I was just open to cuddles and so on.
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And that's why I say, with heartbreak for her,
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Because she was there for me with listened sexual,
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There was also interest in me as a person.
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And I could give her that love she gave me,
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Don't give back one to one like that.
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Whether I wanted it or not. I wanted it.
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And yet my head said no,
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Because my head was totally closed and isolated and everything.
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And that's why I say she was too good for me.
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Yeah, and now we're at a point where you could say,
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I imagine you could accept it, allow it, feel it,
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that you would give it to her,
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that what you would give yourself,
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that what you can't give her,
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You give it to another person.
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It doesn't matter if it's male, female or anything in between.
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Imagine that.
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I'm just imagining this and I imagined it back then too.
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That thing is, yes.
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How are you doing with it? That is the question.
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This is my first question to you.
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Look, this thing is like, I'm a very, very philosophical guy.
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And also a very dramatic person.
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And I always try to do everything possible, especially my thoughts
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Theatrical to say that you always do it, I always have to get it all out
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from the conversation. The thing is, watch out, the thing is like,
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I don't talk about it often,
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I have some issues in certain areas.
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In my world, in my life,
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A small complex of gods. Means, if, watch out,
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So this is a short digression again,
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You're doing a thumbnail now and I'm doing a thumbnail too
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and my thumbnail is really horny, I feel it. And then you make a thumbnail,
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Where it looks a little better than mine. I'm so honest,
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I can tell you, this looks cooler than mine. Nevertheless, I think so,
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Shit, now I have to do something that's even better than his.
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I always have to be better and crasser than someone.
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And now if I'm sitting in the Discord with a woman and I could say to her,
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As an example, as far as the voice is concerned,
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Yes, my day was beautiful today. No, I want to impress her.
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Definitely like that. And try to trick around a bit again.
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I always have to be better than someone else. And that breaks my head.
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Just like that. Isn't that what I'm saying now,
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I find this cool in my life. It breaks my head in places.
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And back to your question that this digression,
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That fits together. I give to this woman,
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Watch out, I'm such a person, I can give her this love,
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She deserves not to be so one-to-one.
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I'll let her have someone. I'll give her that.
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But then at this point, when I'm giving it to her
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And she finds someone, I don't want to be a part of her life anymore.
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If she ends the relationship now and she arrives three months later
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And say, watch out, I've met someone there
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It's so cool and cool that we
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We have separated in the best way and it does me really good,
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Then I'd say, watch out, you're a good woman, you deserve that,
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That he's good to you. I wouldn't hate or rush or anything.
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I would really, I, tell you what it's like, I'm such a human being,
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I want a person to be happy in the relationship.
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I just don't want to be a part of her anymore.
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because this thought is always there, look, he loves her more than you
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And the smile is certainly more romantic, more harmonious than with you.
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Again and again this complex of gods comes, yes, people are better
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than you and you can't do anything about it. It breaks my head.
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So pure as... - But the question had been,
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It's like you're still with her.
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and that they now have a second or a third or a fourth person
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It's about giving her what you can't give her.
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The thing is, you can too, so even if love is different,
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For example, you now have a dog or cat.
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or several dogs and cats, so there are people who say,
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Be careful, you can give me more than a human being.
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Purely this feeling of closeness for example, ne, and that dogs and cats
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so honest and so grateful, that's also such a big point,
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Gratitude in the relationship. I am also a fan of gratitude.
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You show each other and say you're grateful.
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for certain things is, ne, for an open ear and so on.
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If I stop. - Yes, no, that's super important.
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That's what many in the relationship always forget, an open ear.
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There are so few partners where you just have an open ear,
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So, there's sex there, a little love, okay, but the open ear doesn't stop.
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And like I said, I'd give it to the person, really.
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I say to her, watch out if there's anyone there,
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I give it to 100.%, I want you to be happy.
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I just want it when I'm with her.
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I wouldn't let her have someone better than me.
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Okay. - Then I don't want to be there anymore.
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I don't hate them either. I'm not human now either,
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If I have a partner now and it doesn't work
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and she would start something with you now, for example,
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I'm not someone who says I don't give it to you.
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I'd say I'll give it to you anyway.
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I think it's interesting that you're like that, yes, from your personality,
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You can't even think it through theoretically.
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I think it's interesting. I don't appreciate it now, do I?
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So I'm not saying, oh, the MTC, oh, oh, oh,
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It's okay because I can't ask for it.
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or have to accept that people are all different
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And not everyone has to be fit with my opinion, with my philosophy.
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That's the case with me, I've had experiences over the course of my life.
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I've seen it in friends, their relationship.
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I've seen it with the parents of friends
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If you have a certain composure,
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It is always necessary to know its value.
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And a lot of people have a problem with it.
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How important you are to another person.
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My current girlfriend tells me this so often,
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how much she feels about me and how important I am to her,
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I can be 100% sure,
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that even if I now, if she would say,
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You, I've got a crush on someone else,
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There's someone who looks so great,
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I'd like to get a little physical,
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I really don't have any concerns,
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It's more than just sex, because that's the point.
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I don't know, I think you've been to a swinger club before?
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No, so I already had contacts that were in there.
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Let's put it this way, I've already had contact with people,
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where this was publicly lived out and I already had impressions of it,
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So good impressions. I know how to get fit at a swinger club,
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But I've never been there.
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0:50:41 – 0:50:46
So when I went to the swinger club with my ex-girlfriend,
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It was like that, it was Molly parties.
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0:50:50 – 0:50:56
And I really have a fetish for chubby women.
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I find them incredibly attractive.
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0:50:59 – 0:51:04
And this is not just an inclination, this is really a fetish.
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0:51:04 – 0:51:08
And then we're at these Molly parties
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0:51:08 – 0:51:11
And of course there are a lot of great women running around,
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who are all very sexy and when you come to the conversation,
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0:51:14 – 0:51:18
There's a lot where you think so,
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0:51:18 – 0:51:22
What a sharp cut,
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To make it more civilized.
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But I never felt the need to start something else.
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but I stopped for the first time
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spent on top of the mattresses with my partner
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And then I gave it to her.
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She has fun with different partners.
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0:51:52 – 0:51:57
I had been there, managed the whole thing a bit,
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Because this can get quite crowded and give crowds.
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0:52:01 – 0:52:05
I told her that she really had fun.
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0:52:05 – 0:52:09
And the best thing was when we went home,
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0:52:09 – 0:52:13
Then, at home, the lucius went off really well.
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0:52:13 – 0:52:17
So it wasn't like we were just there, I say,
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0:52:17 – 0:52:22
We had sex once and then she had sex with a lot of other people.
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0:52:22 – 0:52:26
And that was it for me. No, so that was always so turn-based.
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0:52:26 – 0:52:30
So you've been upstairs, then downstairs, what to drink, what to eat,
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0:52:30 – 0:52:34
then back up and then home,
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0:52:34 – 0:52:39
Then there was this killer explosion-like hot sex.
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0:52:39 – 0:52:44
I don't know why. And that was all right for me.
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0:52:44 – 0:52:48
And I enjoyed it so much,
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0:52:48 – 0:52:52
that this mindset was alone,
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0:52:52 – 0:52:57
You're keen on my friends now, but she's going home with me.
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0:52:57 – 0:53:01
Of course it was such a kick.
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0:53:01 – 0:53:08
There were relationships, of course I had something to go along with.
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0:53:08 – 0:53:13
And if all this was still relatively fresh or something,
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0:53:13 – 0:53:17
Then I hid it too.
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0:53:17 – 0:53:21
I'd do it differently today, but then I wasn't ready.
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0:53:21 – 0:53:25
That I could do that.
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0:53:25 – 0:53:29
Today I would no longer enter into a partnership,
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0:53:29 – 0:53:33
If it is not the theoretical possibility, i.e. not practical,
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0:53:33 – 0:53:39
In theory, there is the possibility that you can have something with other people.
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0:53:39 – 0:53:44
Be it now sex, so only the purely physical basis,
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0:53:44 – 0:53:48
Or maybe the emotional basis.
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0:53:48 – 0:53:52
I would never rule it out.
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0:53:52 – 0:53:56
I've been in love with two women at the same time.
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0:53:56 – 0:54:00
And I also know that I, for example, my older nephew,
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0:54:00 – 0:54:04
because there is also a much more emotional relationship,
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0:54:04 – 0:54:08
because I also had a father's replacement, a father's role for him,
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0:54:08 – 0:54:13
a different relationship with a different depth than my other two nephews,
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0:54:13 – 0:54:17
Which I really love, the two of them.
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0:54:17 – 0:54:21
But that has a different level. And that's how I see it.
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0:54:21 – 0:54:25
I can't rule this out for me, that maybe someday there will be for me,
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0:54:25 – 0:54:29
I love two women or three, I don't know.
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0:54:29 – 0:54:33
I don't want to overestimate myself now.
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0:54:33 – 0:54:37
Do you know what I'm trying to get at? I can't deny that.
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0:54:37 – 0:54:40
Yeah, I know where you're headed.
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0:54:40 – 0:54:45
You meant that you don't want to keep the possibility open practically, but theoretically,
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0:54:45 – 0:54:49
If you're in a relationship, that's possible.
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0:54:49 – 0:54:53
So theoretically, this may have to be feasible.
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0:54:53 – 0:54:56
I asked you earlier what you would do,
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0:54:56 – 0:54:59
If only I met your friend.
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0:54:59 – 0:55:03
You also mentioned in the conversation that she has a bit of fear of loss
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0:55:03 – 0:55:07
And tell you very often that she's glad to have you and I love this, that.
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0:55:07 – 0:55:11
And if it were the other way around, you'd feel something for a woman now,
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0:55:11 – 0:55:15
purely sexual and also maybe a bit, okay, such a friend of yours,
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0:55:15 – 0:55:20
She's an insane person, you'd think.
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0:55:20 – 0:55:25
That your girlfriend would say, okay, yeah, I'm fine with that.
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0:55:25 – 0:55:30
Or would that be problematic for them, what do you think? Just now as an assessment.
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0:55:30 – 0:55:36
So I know she's got a problem with polyamory.
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0:55:36 – 0:55:41
For her, love is something exclusive. I know that.
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0:55:41 – 0:55:50
But the physical level, it has fewer problems, because it should theoretically also.
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0:55:50 – 0:55:55
If she wants to do that, she can do it.
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0:55:55 – 0:55:59
You're having conversations, and you're clarifying that.
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0:55:59 – 0:56:03
And I think it's very important that you also talk about wishes and so on,
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0:56:03 – 0:56:07
Because only talking people can be helped. You can.
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0:56:07 – 0:56:11
Yes, absolutely. That's important. communication in the relationship, no matter how a relationship goes,
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0:56:11 – 0:56:14
is important and I'm not just talking about the partnership relationship,
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0:56:14 – 0:56:16
Everywhere communication is important.
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0:56:16 – 0:56:21
I need to know what I'm saying is hurting or how do you take it on?
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0:56:21 – 0:56:26
I need to know that. That thing is, if I were in a relationship now,
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0:56:26 – 0:56:28
the relationship is going well, so far everything is fine,
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0:56:28 – 0:56:31
and the partner suggests to me, watch out, what does it look like,
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0:56:31 – 0:56:35
We make such an open thing out of it, I can start something with any partners.
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0:56:35 – 0:56:39
But you can also start something with any partners, no matter, male, female, no matter.
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0:56:39 – 0:56:44
The thing is, even the fact that I can do it,
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0:56:44 – 0:56:51
That wouldn't be enough to say you could try it.
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0:56:51 – 0:56:56
I'm not saying there's nothing at all for me.
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0:56:56 – 0:57:01
Even if my partner said, watch out, I live monogamously, I just need you,
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0:57:01 – 0:57:04
But if you want to start something with someone, I'm not mad at you.
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0:57:04 – 0:57:07
I don't need that. Even then, I wouldn't do it.
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0:57:07 – 0:57:10
I am always focused on one person.
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0:57:10 – 0:57:16
You have to imagine, that's totally uncomfortable now, probably totally cheesy,
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0:57:16 – 0:57:21
If I have your best friend, your real best friend,
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0:57:21 – 0:57:25
Not so, you talk to each other a little bit, but real, real best friend,
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0:57:25 – 0:57:28
where you know you can cry, you can laugh with this person,
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0:57:28 – 0:57:30
The person feels exactly those emotions that you have.
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0:57:30 – 0:57:33
Can also stand at your door at 4.30 a.m. and ring the bell.
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0:57:33 – 0:57:39
That's it, that's it. I know a lot of people and most of them I find insanely sympathetic.
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0:57:39 – 0:57:43
But my old buddy at the time, where you knew a little,
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0:57:43 – 0:57:46
For example, he lived somewhere else.
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0:57:46 – 0:57:51
But if he had been at my door at 4 o'clock, I would have said, what's the matter, come in.
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0:57:51 – 0:57:53
That would never have been an issue for me.
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0:57:53 – 0:57:56
And be careful to make that clear, that's the cheesy point now,
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0:57:56 – 0:58:00
If the person is really a really best friend, really the best friend,
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0:58:00 – 0:58:03
Which you can ever have, or best friend, doesn't matter.
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0:58:03 – 0:58:06
And this person gets to know one person, another person.
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0:58:06 – 0:58:11
And they do more to each other and less and less the person does to you.
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0:58:11 – 0:58:14
And the sympathy of them increases and you notice again and again,
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0:58:14 – 0:58:17
the conversations become less, the sympathy for each other,
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0:58:17 – 0:58:19
You don't make jokes like you used to.
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0:58:19 – 0:58:22
They say now, for example, boah, today I'm totally shit,
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0:58:22 – 0:58:23
I need someone to talk to.
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0:58:23 – 0:58:26
Then come on, yeah, I was already on a date with the other person,
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0:58:26 – 0:58:28
A bit like that, it's just about friendship.
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0:58:28 – 0:58:31
Tell you, I'm just like in relationships, I don't make a difference.
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0:58:31 – 0:58:33
I'd just be pissed off.
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0:58:33 – 0:58:38
And I'm not like that, look, if I'm mad at something like that,
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0:58:38 – 0:58:40
I'm not saying yes, I forbid you to do that.
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0:58:40 – 0:58:41
That's not how I'm in relationships.
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0:58:41 – 0:58:45
I withdraw, I suffer inwardly and I mean, I then close myself.
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0:58:45 – 0:58:47
Suddenly, like a shield around me.
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0:58:47 – 0:58:50
And when it comes back to the fact that this person,
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0:58:50 – 0:58:53
this best friend comes to me and says, yes come,
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0:58:53 – 0:58:55
I have less contact with this person now.
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0:58:55 – 0:58:56
Because she works a lot.
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0:58:56 – 0:58:58
We can do something together again.
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0:58:58 – 0:58:59
We're best friends.
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0:58:59 – 0:59:03
I say as it is, I wouldn't be extremely resentful now,
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0:59:03 – 0:59:06
But I would say yes, I don't know, I have to think a little bit.
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0:59:06 – 0:59:10
You're like a kicked dog.
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0:59:10 – 0:59:12
Yes, just because there is also with me,
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0:59:12 – 0:59:15
Whether it's relationships or friendships or something,
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0:59:15 – 0:59:16
I just always feel like,
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0:59:16 – 0:59:19
Another person is better than me, I wasn't good enough.
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0:59:19 – 0:59:22
I, you know, I, used to be in my first relationship,
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0:59:22 – 0:59:23
I just lived like that.
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0:59:23 – 0:59:26
I lived and I didn't care if I said anything
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0:59:26 – 0:59:28
What was hurtful, I didn't care.
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0:59:28 – 0:59:29
I didn't think about it.
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0:59:29 – 0:59:33
Today I am so empathic that every word I say
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0:59:33 – 0:59:35
As an example to the listeners.
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0:59:35 – 0:59:37
I got you the other day, I got you once,
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0:59:37 – 0:59:39
where we had privately cloaked in Discord,
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0:59:39 – 0:59:41
I asked you something about stroke.
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0:59:41 – 0:59:42
And this is a sensitive issue.
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0:59:42 – 0:59:45
And I apologized before and again after,
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0:59:45 – 0:59:47
that I raised the issue because it could have been,
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0:59:47 – 0:59:50
that you say, watch out, that was a very emotional one for me,
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0:59:50 – 0:59:53
It's a tough topic, I don't want to talk about it.
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0:59:53 – 0:59:55
And that's why I have, I'm so empathic,
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0:59:55 – 0:59:57
I'm already talking about that, you know.
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0:59:57 – 1:00:01
And in the relationship, I'm so grossly empathic,
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1:00:01 – 1:00:05
so any small facial expression of the partner,
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1:00:05 – 1:00:08
You know, I feel like, okay, now I've done some shit.
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1:00:08 – 1:00:09
Now I've said something wrong,
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1:00:09 – 1:00:11
'Cause I had the problem with people,
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1:00:11 – 1:00:14
That's why I talked about ghosting once or twice on YouTube,
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1:00:14 – 1:00:17
that people didn't tell me what they felt,
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1:00:17 – 1:00:18
What I did wrong.
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1:00:18 – 1:00:21
People just hosted me at some point and finished.
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1:00:21 – 1:00:24
And I'm just like that when I have a best friend,
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1:00:24 – 1:00:26
who has more contact with someone else than with me,
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1:00:26 – 1:00:28
I would accept that, of course, of course.
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1:00:28 – 1:00:30
But I would also communicate.
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1:00:30 – 1:00:34
I'd say, okay, we've got something planned, okay.
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1:00:34 – 1:00:36
I would communicate like that.
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1:00:36 – 1:00:40
But I'd also be locked up and put on a shield.
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1:00:40 – 1:00:44
So I can understand you point-by-point,
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1:00:44 – 1:00:49
Friendships are also a form of relationship.
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1:00:49 – 1:00:53
It's not necessarily romantic, but it's also a relationship.
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1:00:53 – 1:00:57
And we all tick a bit differently.
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1:00:57 – 1:01:03
And if you have such demands on exclusivity, then so be it.
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1:01:03 – 1:01:06
Now you have to say,
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1:01:06 – 1:01:09
When I was as young as you, I felt the same way.
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1:01:09 – 1:01:12
Yes, I made my claims as well.
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1:01:12 – 1:01:15
And especially when I was in love with a woman,
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1:01:15 – 1:01:17
and we were in this phase of getting to know each other,
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1:01:17 – 1:01:21
I wanted to spend time with this girl.
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1:01:21 – 1:01:24
And then friends were pushed aside relative to each other.
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1:01:24 – 1:01:32
And that has become less over the years.
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1:01:32 – 1:01:34
Of course, the time is when you stop,
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1:01:34 – 1:01:37
In my case, I met a new woman.
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1:01:37 – 1:01:41
It's more intense and you have a lot more contact.
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1:01:41 – 1:01:44
And then the friends step aside a bit.
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1:01:44 – 1:01:49
But you're learning that it's also important to maintain friendship.
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1:01:49 – 1:01:55
And that's a good transition now to what I wanted to say.
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1:01:55 – 1:02:01
Two of my best friends are ex-girlfriends of mine.
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1:02:01 – 1:02:06
And I can tell you, even if I'm with the one
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1:02:06 – 1:02:13
Maybe write three or four times a year because that's how you talk on the phone.
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1:02:13 – 1:02:15
That's not necessarily my thing either.
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1:02:15 – 1:02:18
Funny, I do podcasts, but I don't like to talk on the phone.
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1:02:18 – 1:02:20
I feel it absolutely.
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1:02:20 – 1:02:23
So there is a lot of writing, and because I find it more discreet,
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1:02:23 – 1:02:27
I don't know what situation he is in right now.
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1:02:27 – 1:02:33
But I know I could actually be at the door at four o'clock in the morning
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1:02:33 – 1:02:40
And I might have a really bad temper, but I'd have an understanding girlfriend.
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1:02:40 – 1:02:45
And with the other, I write a lot more.
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1:02:45 – 1:02:48
We also meet sometimes, then she comes here with her husband
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1:02:48 – 1:02:50
And then we do something.
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1:02:50 – 1:02:54
Because I would also like to go to her, but that's just so tedious for me,
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1:02:54 – 1:03:01
with wheelchair and so on, as to take the route on me.
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1:03:01 – 1:03:05
Even by car you drive an hour and then you're there.
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1:03:05 – 1:03:08
In any case, we meet there and a few times a year,
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1:03:08 – 1:03:12
And then, we chat a lot, and that's just these everyday conversations,
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1:03:12 – 1:03:17
Let's talk about some problems or relationship problems.
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1:03:17 – 1:03:22
This is interesting because it is also a kind of love and relationship.
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1:03:22 – 1:03:25
And I know that I can totally rely on these people.
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1:03:25 – 1:03:28
And above all, the special thing is, that's the only point,
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1:03:28 – 1:03:34
Wherever I wanted to go, I know.
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1:03:34 – 1:03:37
Even though we haven't written this for a long time,
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I can rely on these people.
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I don't always have to come across understanding because every person is different.
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But when I'm in a situation where I need help,
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Just say "help" and I'll get the help.
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And that's one thing that has actually arisen over the years.
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These are the things you experience and so on.
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There are people you can rely on
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and people you can't rely on.
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And you just realize that these people you can rely on,
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who are important to you, to whom you are important,
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That you keep in touch.
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And if that's really only three or four times a year,
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1:04:20 – 1:04:25
You'll be surprised if I write with an ex-girlfriend.
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then you tell yourself what's new, what's happened in the family,
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What happened professionally and so on.
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So these typical things that you can do so...
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And then it's also about how you feel,
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What you do with friends.
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You used to go partying
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and someday you'll have a good drink in the living room,
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Sitting in nice music and someday you'll be sitting
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with a "cigar" and a whisky and philosophizing about life.
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These are the parts of how things change.
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And I know I can rely on these people,
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Even though it was a long time ago that we had contact.
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1:05:10 – 1:05:13
And then the other thing I wanted to say about it is,
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I've had a relationship with four women.
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And with two of them, I really have a deep, bonding friendship.
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I think that's a pretty good cut,
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Because I'm usually someone who likes it.
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When I'm with someone I've had a relationship with,
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The one I loved continues to have a friendly relationship.
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I mean, we can all be assholes somewhere, it's clear,
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but that is so.
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I would also like to have a friendly relationship with my last ex.
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But that's for two reasons. Once she doesn't want it
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That would be my current girlfriend's absolute no-go.
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Look, these are very, very good points.
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I can agree very, very much with you.
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Especially when it comes to friendships.
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1:06:10 – 1:06:13
I have with my last ex – this is always difficult,
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I don't want to write name-dropping or anything like that.
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1:06:16 – 1:06:20
I wouldn't have a problem with it now, which probably isn't now, either.
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1:06:20 – 1:06:22
But these are open issues.
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1:06:22 – 1:06:24
The thing is, when I talk about toxic ex,
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This was my second relationship in my life.
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1:06:27 – 1:06:29
Where the relationship was.
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1:06:29 – 1:06:32
When I talk about my last relationship, I mean the long-distance relationship,
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1:06:32 – 1:06:35
Because after that, nothing really reasonable happened.
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1:06:35 – 1:06:38
That thing is, I have in a certain time,
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When she blocked me and ignored me,
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to shake off those feelings, which I did, I understood,
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1:06:45 – 1:06:47
Why did she end the relationship?
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1:06:47 – 1:06:49
I was just too cold.
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1:06:49 – 1:06:52
Nevertheless, I wished for a while,
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that we may have contact with the egoistic thought again,
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1:06:56 – 1:06:59
Maybe it could be emotional,
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Maybe you'll try it again somehow.
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But I also knew, on the other hand,
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She doesn't want that, and she wants to lose love completely.
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1:07:08 – 1:07:11
Later, when I became more reasonable,
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adult and the heartbreak was gone piece by piece
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1:07:14 – 1:07:17
and then I could talk to her normally again,
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1:07:17 – 1:07:19
human, factual, and so on.
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1:07:19 – 1:07:21
I mean, it's always been factual.
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1:07:21 – 1:07:24
We were in a good relationship, we didn't hate each other.
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1:07:24 – 1:07:26
Before the relationship, we were really good friends,
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1:07:26 – 1:07:27
We found ourselves cool.
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1:07:27 – 1:07:30
"Ah, you're doing the YouTube and so on and you're gambling."
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1:07:30 – 1:07:31
It's a horny thing.
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1:07:31 – 1:07:35
I have to say, she was a really cool sock.
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1:07:35 – 1:07:37
Full understanding.
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1:07:37 – 1:07:43
You've had a lot of interests, you've had a lot of the same hobbies.
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1:07:43 – 1:07:45
She was really so on mine,
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1:07:45 – 1:07:47
Yeah, what's that called?
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1:07:47 – 1:07:49
It had also been my prey scheme.
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1:07:49 – 1:07:54
All I can say is that this was a really cool sock.
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1:07:54 – 1:07:57
Yes, she was a pretty, attractive,
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1:07:57 – 1:08:02
reasonable, very adult and sympathetic woman,
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1:08:02 – 1:08:04
Even as she was.
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1:08:04 – 1:08:05
I'm such a type of person,
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1:08:05 – 1:08:07
We've been on a podcast before, too.
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1:08:07 – 1:08:09
the subject with loot scheme, or let's call it,
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1:08:09 – 1:08:12
What you find so attractive, likes or something.
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1:08:12 – 1:08:16
I'm such a friend when women are so nerdy.
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1:08:16 – 1:08:18
If women can talk so well,
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1:08:18 – 1:08:20
Look, I put my PC together.
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1:08:20 – 1:08:23
Or "Ah, look, I'm doing a little YouTube, too,
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1:08:23 – 1:08:24
Streaming and all that.
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1:08:24 – 1:08:29
I think it's amazing, I think it's insanely attractive.
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1:08:29 – 1:08:31
I'm swarming for it, really.
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1:08:31 – 1:08:35
I can fully understand myself,
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1:08:35 – 1:08:38
Because then you also have a level, a level of conversation.
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1:08:38 – 1:08:41
So if you have someone there who's absolutely not creative,
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1:08:41 – 1:08:44
It doesn't have to be on the PC or even on the Internet.
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1:08:44 – 1:08:46
But if you have someone who isn't creative,
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1:08:46 – 1:08:49
I find it so boring.
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1:08:49 – 1:08:51
What do you want to talk about?
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1:08:51 – 1:08:54
Look, this thing is when the podcast's around,
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1:08:54 – 1:08:56
I can tell you a little more about that,
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1:08:56 – 1:08:58
Because it has to do with name-dropping.
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1:08:58 – 1:09:00
It has nothing to do with podcasts.
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1:09:00 – 1:09:03
The thing is, watch out, pure as an idea,
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1:09:03 – 1:09:05
It doesn't have to have anything to do with a person.
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1:09:05 – 1:09:09
I know a woman I find attractive now, okay?
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1:09:09 – 1:09:12
I know some physical things about this woman.
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1:09:12 – 1:09:15
Let's put it this way, you have such a bit of contact,
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1:09:15 – 1:09:17
Write a little about this and that.
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1:09:17 – 1:09:18
Look, that doesn't bring me anything,
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1:09:18 – 1:09:20
If I find this woman physically attractive,
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1:09:20 – 1:09:23
But you're not on a level of interest.
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1:09:23 – 1:09:24
Do you understand?
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1:09:24 – 1:09:26
If you sympathize absolutely, if you sympathize zero.
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1:09:26 – 1:09:29
Because when I say to the person, as an example,
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1:09:29 – 1:09:32
Oh look, I'm doing podcasts like this and that,
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1:09:32 – 1:09:35
Podcast, I don't know, I don't like it.
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1:09:35 – 1:09:37
Then I say to her, what are you doing?
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1:09:37 – 1:09:39
And she says now, for example, I play tennis
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1:09:39 – 1:09:42
I can't do anything about tennis, so I can't do anything about it.
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1:09:42 – 1:09:43
No tennis at all.
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1:09:43 – 1:09:45
And she can't start with my shit.
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1:09:45 – 1:09:47
This is not always an indicator of
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1:09:47 – 1:09:49
that a relationship or a friendship or something,
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1:09:49 – 1:09:50
that such a thing is always perfect,
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1:09:50 – 1:09:52
If you really share every interest.
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1:09:52 – 1:09:55
Every interest, every field, every hobby.
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1:09:55 – 1:09:58
But it brings in a friendship at least
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1:09:58 – 1:09:59
And also a lot in a relationship.
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1:09:59 – 1:10:01
And so, to get back to the point,
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1:10:01 – 1:10:03
I was also my ex-girlfriend.
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1:10:03 – 1:10:06
So before the relationship, totally, so really insane woman,
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1:10:06 – 1:10:09
She was really, really sympathetic.
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1:10:09 – 1:10:11
And there's a funny story.
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1:10:11 – 1:10:14
I once had another friend, so a buddy friend,
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1:10:14 – 1:10:16
She was always such a fan of my voice.
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1:10:16 – 1:10:20
And she always said, ah, you know, the Empty and all that,
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1:10:20 – 1:10:23
and the talks where you do and in general the settings,
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1:10:23 – 1:10:25
Oh my gosh, let's talk about this, this.
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1:10:25 – 1:10:26
Really, I liked it.
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1:10:26 – 1:10:28
And she's always been so raving about it.
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1:10:28 – 1:10:31
And my ex-girlfriend, I was on the verge of
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1:10:31 – 1:10:34
To make namedropping, my ex-girlfriend was just like that,
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1:10:34 – 1:10:37
where we were friends, she listened to that in the Discord,
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1:10:37 – 1:10:39
As she laughed at me, she laughed at me.
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1:10:39 – 1:10:41
I mean, that's a normal, sympathetic voice.
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1:10:41 – 1:10:44
I don't know where you're going.
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1:10:44 – 1:10:46
Calm down, too,
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1:10:46 – 1:10:48
You can't have a reasonable conversation.
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1:10:48 – 1:10:50
And I thought it was funny.
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1:10:50 – 1:10:53
And that was always, in the relationship at least,
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1:10:53 – 1:10:55
It has always been a contentious issue.
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1:10:55 – 1:10:58
At first it was normal, but then it was a matter of contention.
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1:10:58 – 1:11:01
I have to imagine I'm such a fan of voices.
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1:11:01 – 1:11:03
Whether male or female,
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1:11:03 – 1:11:06
I like how people express themselves, articulate,
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1:11:06 – 1:11:08
how people can change their voices,
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1:11:08 – 1:11:09
In a certain way.
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1:11:09 – 1:11:11
If someone is emotional,
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1:11:11 – 1:11:13
Yeah, look, I'm doing a little shit right now.
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1:11:13 – 1:11:16
Or a little sour when you say,
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1:11:16 – 1:11:18
"Yes, no, the topic you mentioned,
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1:11:18 – 1:11:19
I don't see it that way.
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1:11:19 – 1:11:21
This one with more pressure and all that.
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1:11:21 – 1:11:23
I'm badly damaged by voices.
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1:11:23 – 1:11:24
And also voice actors.
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1:11:24 – 1:11:26
I love this job, you have to imagine.
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1:11:26 – 1:11:29
And she was like that, she didn't take it as seriously as I did.
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1:11:29 – 1:11:30
And when I said,
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1:11:30 – 1:11:32
Look, there's a girl,
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1:11:32 – 1:11:34
The girl kind of like that, I don't know.
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1:11:34 – 1:11:36
And it sets the tone.
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1:11:36 – 1:11:38
And her voice is insane.
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1:11:38 – 1:11:39
I love her voice.
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1:11:39 – 1:11:42
She really has a great voice for the projects,
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1:11:42 – 1:11:44
That's what I do for emotional projects.
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1:11:44 – 1:11:46
I thought it was normal,
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1:11:46 – 1:11:49
'Cause I didn't swarm or flirt with them.
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1:11:49 – 1:11:51
I just meant, "Ey, the voice is insane."
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1:11:51 – 1:11:53
And my ex, she found that shit.
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1:11:53 – 1:11:56
And there was a fight and there was always drama about it.
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1:11:56 – 1:11:57
And I didn't know why.
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1:11:57 – 1:12:00
Until I started not to talk to her anymore.
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1:12:00 – 1:12:02
Because those were my YouTube projects.
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1:12:02 – 1:12:05
She did, so that hurt her.
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1:12:05 – 1:12:07
She didn't mean, "Well, you don't."
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1:12:07 – 1:12:10
I saw that she doesn't celebrate it quite like that,
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1:12:10 – 1:12:12
She pulls it down a bit and hurts it.
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1:12:12 – 1:12:14
Yes, yes.
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1:12:14 – 1:12:17
And those are things, you know?
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1:12:17 – 1:12:21
There it is again this matter of exclusivity,
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1:12:21 – 1:12:23
Which is perfectly okay.
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1:12:23 – 1:12:27
And then jealousy and bla bla bla, what's so attached.
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1:12:27 – 1:12:33
You've only seen it for your business.
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1:12:33 – 1:12:38
Interesting voice, good to use, ideal for my projects.
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1:12:38 – 1:12:41
She may have interpreted it,
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1:12:41 – 1:12:45
'Cause you sprinkled for that voice, not for the woman,
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1:12:45 – 1:12:47
Maybe there's a little more behind it.
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1:12:47 – 1:12:51
But that also speaks for the self-insecurity that she has.
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1:12:51 – 1:12:53
Oh, God, I should be a psychologist.
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1:12:53 – 1:13:01
Generally, we people who have a few corners and edges in our head,
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1:13:01 – 1:13:03
I think we generally have that feeling.
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1:13:03 – 1:13:06
That's why I keep saying I don't have to go to the psychologist.
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1:13:06 – 1:13:08
Why then? I know my problem.
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1:13:08 – 1:13:10
Shortly again as a digression.
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1:13:10 – 1:13:15
The thing is, before the relationship, we had a friendly relationship.
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1:13:15 – 1:13:18
It wasn't the best friendship, but we had a cool relationship.
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1:13:18 – 1:13:20
We had friendly really top.
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1:13:20 – 1:13:23
Then came the relationship, I made clear from day one before,
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1:13:23 – 1:13:26
Watch out, I have a lot of construction sites and problems.
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1:13:26 – 1:13:29
And if you take me, also emotionally fall in love with me,
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1:13:29 – 1:13:32
Because that's the thing, you rave for someone in the beginning.
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1:13:32 – 1:13:36
Because if someone says to you, I love this woman or I love this person,
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1:13:36 – 1:13:38
But I'm not with her, the nonsense, there's no such thing.
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1:13:38 – 1:13:39
You're raving about a woman.
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1:13:39 – 1:13:42
Only in the course of the relationship does this infatuation come.
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1:13:42 – 1:13:44
So that's how I see it, if I was honest with you, I don't know what it's like with you.
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1:13:44 – 1:13:46
But you can rave for one person,
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1:13:47 – 1:13:51
But only in the course of the relationship does this come, this is a great person.
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1:13:51 – 1:13:55
You look at the person and think I just love that person.
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1:13:55 – 1:13:57
So for me, that comes in the course of the relationship.
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1:13:57 – 1:14:01
That's right. In my case, it's pretty much the same.
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1:14:01 – 1:14:07
You get to know someone in some way and you think, interesting.
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1:14:07 – 1:14:13
Then something happens and you think, oh la la.
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1:14:13 – 1:14:16
But that's great.
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1:14:16 – 1:14:19
Then comes this process, where you get to know each other
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1:14:19 – 1:14:22
and then this infatuation arises,
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1:14:22 – 1:14:29
where the other is in pink-red colors and pink fluffing unicorn dancing on rainbow.
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1:14:29 – 1:14:35
This extremo high, the brain floats in dopamine and everything is great and happy
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1:14:35 – 1:14:39
and no one is as horny as this person.
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1:14:39 – 1:14:43
It's going to ebb off a bit at some point.
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1:14:43 – 1:14:50
Then comes that moment when you slowly build that deep relationship level.
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1:14:50 – 1:14:55
When you reach this point, you can stand in the bathroom,
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1:14:55 – 1:15:02
the other person sits on the toilet and ungodly futzt into the toilet bowl
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1:15:02 – 1:15:07
And you think, oh God, I love you so much.
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1:15:07 – 1:15:13
This is really deep love and it takes time, it develops.
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1:15:13 – 1:15:21
If you watch the people who get to know someone, fall in love, have that high
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1:15:21 – 1:15:26
and after this high comes the phase where you sometimes see mistakes
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1:15:26 – 1:15:35
And this one raised to the throne will be a little less.
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1:15:35 – 1:15:45
Then you see mistakes and you have to consider whether you are clear with them or not,
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1:15:45 – 1:15:49
Because they are drastic things.
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1:15:49 – 1:15:53
I have made the feeling and also the observation,
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1:15:53 – 1:16:00
that many people today do not bother and do the work,
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1:16:00 – 1:16:08
At this point, where then the mistakes that bring you down in the trash,
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1:16:08 – 1:16:13
Let goggles stand up and such things, peeing while standing,
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1:16:13 – 1:16:18
no longer try to discuss this and get the problem out of the world,
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1:16:18 – 1:16:22
but I have a certain number of things that bother me,
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1:16:22 – 1:16:25
I'm going to end the relationship and look for the next one.
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1:16:25 – 1:16:30
I optimize myself upwards, from relationship to relationship,
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1:16:30 – 1:16:34
Try to find out the best possible.
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1:16:34 – 1:16:39
This is a pity, because a relationship can only have a certain value over time,
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1:16:39 – 1:16:42
Get some depth.
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1:16:42 – 1:16:47
I just want everyone to take the time to do that.
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1:16:47 – 1:16:50
It is also a process of work.
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1:16:50 – 1:16:57
This is my thing about the relationship in general and it is so on many levels.
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1:16:57 – 1:17:04
I don't know if you agree with me, but I wouldn't say today's youth,
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1:17:04 – 1:17:08
Because that's always a very funny term for people I don't know.
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1:17:08 – 1:17:12
But today's society, as I usually perceive it,
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1:17:12 – 1:17:16
As in my picture, in my understanding, I always feel very strange,
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So dopamine addicted and I don't mean because of the internet.
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A relationship or a friendship, let's start from the relationship.
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A relationship is like a roller coaster ride. It goes up, but it also goes down.
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But you still have to feel the whole roller coaster ride,
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It was cool, it was cool anyway.
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Again and again it goes up and again it goes down.
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I believe today's society, why this coexistence
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and have this understanding for people, this true love, communication,
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to fix it instead of just throwing it away,
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It's like a person is just a piece of shit.
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This works in this day and age, I don't feel that way anymore.
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Because the people who no longer go into a relationship to think,
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Look, there's a person who's listening to me, and they love each other.
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You do these things that you feel and experience together.
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People go into a relationship with the thought, the desire,
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Wow, I want to be very, very high.
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But they forget that it's going to go down again.
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And as soon as it goes down a bit, they say,
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That was it, that was the high that everyone was talking about.
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And that's just dopamine addiction.
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They go upstairs, they're totally in love, they're a couple of weeks,
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Let's call it a few weeks, maybe two or three months together,
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During this time, you will experience this complete high.
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You look at the person, boah, the person must be God,
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Or be a goddess or something.
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And that goes up and the people tell about it,
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How much they love and celebrate this person and so on and so forth.
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The person is perfect, has no mistakes.
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And then, of course, it goes down again, because it's normal in the relationship.
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1:18:37 – 1:18:40
And then comes that way, boah, I don't know if I really love the person.
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Exactly what I said.
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Pink and red glasses.
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And that, I believe, is what is happening in today's society.
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It is becoming more and more the standard.
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And for me it's like this, I'm afraid of this high,
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I'm also afraid of the deep.
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That's why I don't go up that far. I'm afraid of heights.
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1:18:54 – 1:18:57
Okay, a little bit about that, what do you call it?
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Visually.
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A little bit so figuratively speaking, exactly.
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I'm afraid of this high because I know
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It's fucking deep down, too.
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And I'm more like the man who's so midfield, you know,
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I'm experiencing a bit of a jerk, think to myself,
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A bit of adrenaline, but okay.
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But high up, I don't want to go there anymore.
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I'll tell you what it's like, in my first relationships, I was so up there.
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And because of every little shit, I had jealousy.
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1:19:18 – 1:19:22
Because of every little crap, I kind of had heartache, fear of loss.
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I just loved the person too much.
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1:19:25 – 1:19:28
The person wasn't even number one, which was above number one.
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1:19:28 – 1:19:31
So she wasn't zero now, but do you know what I mean?
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There was for me, this person was perfect.
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Just any other person in my environment, whether friends, family,
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It wasn't worth anything to that person.
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1:19:39 – 1:19:41
And I got older and more mature and mature.
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1:19:41 – 1:19:44
And with me the feeling has diminished, because I no longer have so much
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1:19:44 – 1:19:46
Invest in relationships.
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1:19:46 – 1:19:49
That's good for me. I'm shutting up, I'm isolating myself.
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I show a person because I love them.
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And that's what it was. I'm not exaggerating like I used to.
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And there are people out there who say,
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You exaggerate with your love.
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I can't breathe.
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1:19:59 – 1:20:01
And again, there are people who want just that,
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That you're going to break them. Not broken, but,
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that you crush them, figuratively speaking, crush them with this love.
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1:20:06 – 1:20:08
Speaking in a negative sense, crushing.
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1:20:08 – 1:20:10
And maybe the other, he needs it.
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That he gives so much love that it would crush others.
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But that person needs it that way.
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Well, but you just said that.
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And you said yes, the boys of today.
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I can only tell you, I had once been with a former
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1:20:25 – 1:20:27
Classmate of mine a conversation.
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1:20:27 – 1:20:32
Then I have them for ten years, so good ten years,
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1:20:32 – 1:20:35
We met again after our graduation.
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1:20:35 – 1:20:38
And then we met a couple of times with her boyfriend.
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1:20:38 – 1:20:41
And then one day, I broke up with them.
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1:20:41 – 1:20:43
So, what was it?
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1:20:43 – 1:20:47
So many reasons, because the two of them seemed really in love with me.
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1:20:47 – 1:20:54
Then she said, "No, I can't move forward with them."
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1:20:54 – 1:20:57
He's got so many trash, he's got a kid too.
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1:20:57 – 1:21:00
with another woman, some debts and all that.
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1:21:00 – 1:21:02
She said I couldn't move forward.
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1:21:02 – 1:21:06
And that's how I thought, if that's the reason,
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1:21:06 – 1:21:12
that I end a relationship, then it is really very material,
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1:21:12 – 1:21:17
Very rationally considered.
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1:21:17 – 1:21:21
And the other thing I wanted to get out of was,
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1:21:21 – 1:21:25
Even in my youth it was so.
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1:21:25 – 1:21:31
People didn't do it as well as my grandparents did.
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1:21:31 – 1:21:33
Growing a relationship,
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1:21:33 – 1:21:36
As soon as there were the smallest problems.
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1:21:36 – 1:21:38
And that inevitably happens.
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1:21:38 – 1:21:41
So if you keep this thing of infatuation,
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1:21:41 – 1:21:45
Relationship development looks at itself, there comes the point of falling in love,
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1:21:45 – 1:21:49
Then comes a time when people get to know each other.
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1:21:49 – 1:21:52
Not to get to know each other, but to get to know each other.
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1:21:52 – 1:21:54
The personality.
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1:21:54 – 1:21:58
Then there is one where you realize what is.
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1:21:58 – 1:22:04
And only then can this deep love, this deep relationship, arise.
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1:22:04 – 1:22:09
And the model is now simplified, there are a few more phases.
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1:22:09 – 1:22:13
And if you don't take the time, and a lot of people don't take it,
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1:22:13 – 1:22:16
Because as soon as you make the first mistake, the first thing that bothers you,
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1:22:16 – 1:22:22
If you want to end the relationship, you have to take these extreme steps.
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1:22:22 – 1:22:26
Because otherwise the dopamine goes so slowly, so don't go down there laxly,
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1:22:26 – 1:22:28
It's so slow.
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1:22:28 – 1:22:31
One realizes that the other man is not the divine being,
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1:22:31 – 1:22:35
but he also has faults, he has his passions, he has his quirks.
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1:22:35 – 1:22:38
Of course, he comes from a different socialized environment,
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1:22:38 – 1:22:41
He has other parents, he has other siblings.
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1:22:41 – 1:22:44
He was in another school and he has other friends.
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1:22:44 – 1:22:47
And these are all things that shape a person.
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1:22:47 – 1:22:50
And then he goes through some peculiarities,
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1:22:50 – 1:22:52
And you have to deal with that.
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1:22:52 – 1:22:57
Sometimes with such peculiarities, I look at my girlfriend
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1:22:57 – 1:23:00
And think of me like that, I just smile.
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1:23:00 – 1:23:03
Because that's just a sweet mockery with her.
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1:23:03 – 1:23:07
And I think that would never have come that far,
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1:23:07 – 1:23:11
If only they hadn't allowed themselves the time.
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1:23:11 – 1:23:16
Because, now let's get to the point why that was most likely back then.
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1:23:16 – 1:23:19
It didn't work out with the last relationship.
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1:23:19 – 1:23:23
After my stroke, I just fell into quite a depression,
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1:23:23 – 1:23:26
Because I couldn't do so much anymore.
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1:23:26 – 1:23:29
So job-wise, there were total changes,
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1:23:29 – 1:23:31
I couldn't go to work anymore.
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1:23:31 – 1:23:34
In terms of health, it was a disaster anyway.
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1:23:34 – 1:23:38
I was trapped in my apartment, and there I gave it to her,
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1:23:38 – 1:23:42
that I now had someone with whom she could then go for a walk,
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1:23:42 – 1:23:44
shopping, going to the cinema and so on,
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1:23:44 – 1:23:48
Because I didn't get out of my apartment.
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1:23:48 – 1:23:52
I just let her have a little bit more luck.
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1:23:52 – 1:23:56
Because everything I could give her, I gave her.
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1:23:56 – 1:24:00
And that was so much less than before.
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1:24:00 – 1:24:04
Because before we went for a walk on the canal,
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1:24:04 – 1:24:08
We went out to dinner, we went here.
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1:24:08 – 1:24:15
Even shopping together was a memorable trip,
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1:24:15 – 1:24:17
Because it was just great.
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1:24:17 – 1:24:20
And that didn't happen anymore.
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1:24:20 – 1:24:23
And then I suffered, and I also noticed,
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1:24:23 – 1:24:26
that she has suffered, and that she would like to do more.
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1:24:26 – 1:24:29
Take walks along the canal, for example.
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1:24:29 – 1:24:34
There are such beautiful things, and there she experiences so much, and in nature.
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1:24:34 – 1:24:38
Yes, I really allowed her to do that.
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1:24:38 – 1:24:42
And I think at some point she also asked herself the question,
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1:24:42 – 1:24:46
If you really want to do that, in the future.
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1:24:46 – 1:24:54
And above all, you come across very often when you live such a model,
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1:24:54 – 1:24:57
such a relationship model, on incomprehension.
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1:24:57 – 1:25:00
Because a lot of people can't imagine it.
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1:25:00 – 1:25:03
Or there are people who could imagine that,
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1:25:03 – 1:25:07
But they don't want to admit it and then react with rejection.
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1:25:07 – 1:25:10
But in hindsight, you'll find out that those
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1:25:10 – 1:25:14
have any side relationships without the other partner knowing it.
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1:25:14 – 1:25:17
There are so many different things.
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1:25:17 – 1:25:20
I think it's also because of simplicity.
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1:25:20 – 1:25:24
Then the relationship with me ended.
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1:25:24 – 1:25:27
I know it wasn't easy for her,
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1:25:27 – 1:25:30
Because in the conversation, that was totally rational,
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1:25:30 – 1:25:33
There were so many tears from her.
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1:25:33 – 1:25:35
And she apologized to me.
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1:25:35 – 1:25:37
You have to imagine that.
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1:25:37 – 1:25:42
She apologized to me for feeling different about me.
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1:25:42 – 1:25:44
That was fierce.
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1:25:44 – 1:25:50
So, yes, I can absolutely agree with you.
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1:25:50 – 1:25:53
Look, if you're interested,
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1:25:53 – 1:25:56
Or the one or the other listener out there,
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1:25:56 – 1:25:58
I once made a setting.
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1:25:58 – 1:26:00
As I said earlier, I'm someone.
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1:26:00 – 1:26:03
He puts a lot of philosophy into the projects.
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1:26:03 – 1:26:06
Something must always have a deeper meaning.
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1:26:06 – 1:26:09
I've also done a lot of music in my life.
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1:26:09 – 1:26:12
Texts written and set to music.
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1:26:12 – 1:26:14
I don't do it regularly anymore,
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1:26:14 – 1:26:16
But I did it regularly.
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1:26:16 – 1:26:19
And as for my ex-girlfriend, so about the relationship,
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1:26:19 – 1:26:21
I once wrote a set.
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1:26:21 – 1:26:25
I recorded it with another voice actor.
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1:26:25 – 1:26:28
It's still online on my YouTube channel.
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1:26:28 – 1:26:32
It's called "love at a distance," I think.
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1:26:32 – 1:26:34
And there I show in the text,
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1:26:34 – 1:26:38
So also the text, which was set to music by the female person,
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1:26:38 – 1:26:41
I wrote everything, every passage.
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1:26:41 – 1:26:44
She only played the female role.
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1:26:44 – 1:26:47
And that was exactly what I experienced there.
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1:26:47 – 1:26:49
And I always tried to process it that way.
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1:26:49 – 1:26:51
And to get back to the point,
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1:26:51 – 1:26:53
Because you meant,
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1:26:53 – 1:26:55
Sometimes you fall in love with mistakes.
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1:26:55 – 1:26:58
Or maybe the mistakes are cute or something.
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1:26:58 – 1:27:00
Look, that's the way it is with me.
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1:27:00 – 1:27:03
I once had a friend or acquaintance,
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1:27:03 – 1:27:05
He once meant to me,
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1:27:05 – 1:27:07
You're doing these depressing talks.
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1:27:07 – 1:27:09
These are usually only very negative topics.
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1:27:09 – 1:27:12
Your negative music that you've been making for over ten years,
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1:27:12 – 1:27:16
Your TikToks are usually so on sayings and quotes, etc.
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1:27:16 – 1:27:19
It's always very negative and depressing.
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1:27:19 – 1:27:21
His question was, aren't you afraid somehow,
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1:27:21 – 1:27:23
Can't find a woman anymore?
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1:27:23 – 1:27:28
Because a woman is actually looking for a stable guy behind it,
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1:27:28 – 1:27:30
The one with two legs in life.
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1:27:30 – 1:27:32
Not a guy who keeps pitying himself.
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1:27:32 – 1:27:35
I mean, it's an acquaintance, not a friendship,
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1:27:35 – 1:27:37
If it had been a friendship,
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1:27:37 – 1:27:39
If I had been disappointed by this sentence,
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1:27:39 – 1:27:41
Because it's actually a fallacy.
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1:27:41 – 1:27:43
You can be so strong,
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1:27:43 – 1:27:47
Nevertheless, you have your moments where you are unstable, as well as vice versa.
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1:27:47 – 1:27:50
The thing is, I'd rather be honest.
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1:27:50 – 1:27:52
Look, when a woman gets to know me
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1:27:52 – 1:27:54
or I know your wife, you get to know each other,
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1:27:54 – 1:27:56
I'll show you right away, look, these are my projects.
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1:27:56 – 1:27:58
I stand behind these projects,
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1:27:58 – 1:28:00
It's not like it's an art picture.
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1:28:00 – 1:28:02
That's actually me.
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1:28:02 – 1:28:04
MTC is not in any way such an art person,
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1:28:04 – 1:28:06
Which is different in private.
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1:28:06 – 1:28:08
That's me, I live it, I feel it.
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1:28:08 – 1:28:11
I am such a thoughtful, profound,
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1:28:11 – 1:28:14
Usually a very depressed person.
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1:28:14 – 1:28:17
And if a person, a woman in the point,
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1:28:17 – 1:28:20
Getting to know me that way makes it easier.
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1:28:20 – 1:28:23
If a relationship develops out of it,
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1:28:23 – 1:28:25
That the woman can handle it much better.
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1:28:25 – 1:28:27
So at least I think so.
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1:28:27 – 1:28:29
It's better than showing such a picture of yourself.
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1:28:29 – 1:28:31
where you are not.
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1:28:31 – 1:28:33
And then the relationship is over.
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1:28:33 – 1:28:35
And when mistakes come to light,
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1:28:35 – 1:28:37
Yes, you can still communicate with it.
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1:28:37 – 1:28:39
Or just say, watch out, you got to know me that way.
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1:28:39 – 1:28:41
I've always been like that.
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1:28:41 – 1:28:43
I can only tell you now,
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1:28:43 – 1:28:46
I said that before,
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1:28:46 – 1:28:49
How I met my current girlfriend,
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1:28:49 – 1:28:53
She took me to her bath relatively quickly.
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1:28:53 – 1:28:55
virtual, and then said,
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1:28:55 – 1:28:58
Look at that, that's what I am.
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1:28:58 – 1:29:00
Either you get along with me or you don't.
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1:29:00 – 1:29:03
And I had already said to her,
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1:29:03 – 1:29:05
It's okay.
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1:29:05 – 1:29:07
I have these and the limitations,
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1:29:07 – 1:29:09
I have had a stroke,
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1:29:09 – 1:29:11
This means that this and that and that is no longer possible.
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1:29:11 – 1:29:15
Come on, you have to deal with this or not.
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1:29:15 – 1:29:19
I think it's more than normal,
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1:29:19 – 1:29:21
To stop and then say,
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1:29:21 – 1:29:23
What he gets involved in.
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1:29:23 – 1:29:26
She had a bad experience,
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1:29:26 – 1:29:30
that people use them because of their appearance
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1:29:30 – 1:29:32
have devalued
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1:29:32 – 1:29:35
Or how to get into a relationship with them.
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1:29:35 – 1:29:38
And I'm on other levels
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1:29:38 – 1:29:40
Find out something like that, too.
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1:29:40 – 1:29:42
And that you become insecure
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1:29:42 – 1:29:44
He wants to make sure,
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1:29:44 – 1:29:46
It's worth it if I do this,
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1:29:46 – 1:29:48
Especially in a long-distance relationship.
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1:29:48 – 1:29:52
Is it worth it if I invest time and money?
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1:29:52 – 1:29:57
Drive 400 or 500 or 1000 kilometers through the area.
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1:29:57 – 1:29:59
Whether by car or by train.
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That's expensive, too.
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It's also expensive, it's definitely expensive.
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That's why you have to, you don't buy the cat in the bag.
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That's why you have to find out how people are.
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Look, about Discord and about gambling, for example,
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I get to know women from time to time,
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who tell me from the beginning,
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So really this is super rare,
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Those who tell me, watch out.
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I have depression, I am very depressed.
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I live with it, I have borderline too
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I have very serious fears of loss.
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And in every sentence I'm told,
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I see an attack somehow.
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Because I always interpret too much.
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Of course, such a person likes, whether male or female,
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Of course, such a person likes,
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So in the first impression seem to stretch out a bit,
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By the way, okay, the person has a lot of construction sites, okay.
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But in the end, this being crazy,
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That madness,
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Personally, it gives me a feeling of,
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So a little bit of freedom, because I think,
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You know, I have similar problems.
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And maybe you can get there,
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If something develops at some point,
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Whether it's a friendship or a relationship,
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You can also do well there.
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And that's it.
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I can understand you because
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Then you come across understanding.
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1:31:08 – 1:31:11
My friend understands this,
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that I have physical impairments
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After the stroke,
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Some things just aren't that easy.
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If I have more than,
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1:31:22 – 1:31:25
50 meters to walk with a rollator,
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With a rollator,
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I need a wheelchair because I can't do it anymore.
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So certain activities fall
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During a spontaneous shopping trip,
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Walk in the park or so on.
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And there I find,
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This is more than fair,
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if there are such impairments,
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which are perfectly normal for other people,
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1:31:45 – 1:31:47
To communicate this openly for the first time.
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1:31:47 – 1:31:49
By the way, this is also very adult.
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1:31:49 – 1:31:51
If your acquaintances,
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1:31:51 – 1:31:53
Your girlfriend tells you,
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1:31:53 – 1:31:55
You with me are this and that and that
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1:31:55 – 1:31:57
I have the problem and
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1:31:57 – 1:32:01
Borderline isn't exactly
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Not very problematic,
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1:32:03 – 1:32:05
People are carrying a huge package.
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with himself,
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1:32:07 – 1:32:09
It is more than just,
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When I say you,
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I have the problem,
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1:32:13 – 1:32:15
If you start something with me,
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This and that can happen,
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Because that and that is,
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I find it more than correct.
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1:32:21 – 1:32:23
She will have had her experience.
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1:32:23 – 1:32:25
I mean, you go and say,
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Yes, I am this and that and that,
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Because you've already had experiences.
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And I really want to,
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1:32:31 – 1:32:33
If I had to start a relationship again,
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I would also openly and honestly,
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openly and honestly,
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communicate,
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1:32:39 – 1:32:41
What problems are there,
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1:32:41 – 1:32:43
Because otherwise
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1:32:43 – 1:32:45
Look at the other,
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1:32:45 – 1:32:47
He sees mine
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1:32:47 – 1:32:49
Appearance on the Internet
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1:32:49 – 1:32:51
And what do you see there?
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1:32:51 – 1:32:53
Always beautiful pictures
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1:32:53 – 1:32:55
and of course
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in advantageous poses,
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1:32:57 – 1:32:59
embellished by any filters
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and other tricks
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and
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1:33:03 – 1:33:05
It gives the wrong picture.
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1:33:05 – 1:33:07
Of course, if you thought a little,
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1:33:07 – 1:33:09
You would think so too,
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1:33:09 – 1:33:11
He sits a little deep
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1:33:11 – 1:33:13
And it's a little deep.
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1:33:13 – 1:33:15
But that's what most people come up with
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1:33:15 – 1:33:17
Not on it. So, if you just
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1:33:17 – 1:33:19
My Instagram and my
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1:33:19 – 1:33:21
Take a look at Facebook account episodes,
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1:33:21 – 1:33:23
You would never get a great idea,
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1:33:23 – 1:33:25
Because there are few photos,
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1:33:25 – 1:33:27
where I show that I
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1:33:27 – 1:33:29
in a wheelchair or in a rollator
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1:33:29 – 1:33:31
Sit or stand.
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1:33:31 – 1:33:33
It's just like that.
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1:33:33 – 1:33:35
Because I have a problem with it myself,
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1:33:35 – 1:33:37
Because I know it differently.
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1:33:37 – 1:33:39
But
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1:33:39 – 1:33:41
I prefer to communicate it publicly.
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1:33:41 – 1:33:43
and
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1:33:43 – 1:33:45
I'm just better off going there. And I find,
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1:33:45 – 1:33:47
The same goes for your girlfriend or
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1:33:47 – 1:33:49
your acquaintance is more than correct,
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1:33:49 – 1:33:51
That you're doing this. Because
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1:33:51 – 1:33:53
Especially with such illnesses
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1:33:53 – 1:33:55
as Borderline
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1:33:55 – 1:33:57
can be his
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1:33:57 – 1:33:59
friend, partner,
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1:33:59 – 1:34:01
People who are
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1:34:01 – 1:34:03
It is important to expect a lot,
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1:34:03 – 1:34:05
Because they often
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1:34:05 – 1:34:07
very
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1:34:07 – 1:34:09
Pushing people in front of their heads.
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1:34:09 – 1:34:11
For certain reasons.
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1:34:11 – 1:34:13
But that would give you the framework
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1:34:13 – 1:34:15
Blow it up here to explain it all.
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1:34:15 – 1:34:17
Look, this thing is,
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1:34:17 – 1:34:19
I totally agree,
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1:34:19 – 1:34:21
I always say it very, very gladly,
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1:34:21 – 1:34:23
I would like
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1:34:23 – 1:34:25
A woman no longer in the
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1:34:25 – 1:34:27
Hands cry, figuratively speaking.
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1:34:27 – 1:34:29
Because I want one
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1:34:29 – 1:34:31
Woman, and I really find something like this from me too
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1:34:31 – 1:34:33
You'll grow up too, so you'll grow up too.
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1:34:33 – 1:34:35
When you see,
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1:34:35 – 1:34:37
Of course, you have problems and you can't just turn it off,
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1:34:37 – 1:34:39
Just because you're in a relationship now.
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1:34:39 – 1:34:41
But you can stop one person
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1:34:41 – 1:34:43
This is not always the case, especially if the person
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1:34:43 – 1:34:45
He has no contact with it.
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1:34:45 – 1:34:47
I have to think,
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1:34:47 – 1:34:49
What I say. With my ex-girlfriend,
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1:34:49 – 1:34:51
long distance relationship sex girlfriend,
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1:34:51 – 1:34:53
If that's the case, she's got a super good one.
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1:34:53 – 1:34:55
I had a relationship with her family. That had
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1:34:55 – 1:34:57
I never did. There wasn't any way with me
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1:34:57 – 1:34:59
A lot of violence or a lot of
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1:34:59 – 1:35:01
Hatred to the last,
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1:35:01 – 1:35:03
But there was a lot of argument and a lot of
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1:35:03 – 1:35:05
Just displeasure
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1:35:05 – 1:35:07
In the meantime and very often
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1:35:07 – 1:35:09
and to this day. And to this day
|
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1:35:09 – 1:35:11
These are the things that shape me. And if
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1:35:11 – 1:35:13
Someone then says to me, watch out,
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1:35:13 – 1:35:15
my birthday is horny, with
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1:35:15 – 1:35:17
I'm going to do something for my family or Christmas now.
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1:35:17 – 1:35:19
Or Easter, where people sit together.
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1:35:19 – 1:35:21
I give to the people
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1:35:21 – 1:35:23
That, I feel it for
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1:35:23 – 1:35:25
the people. But look,
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1:35:25 – 1:35:27
This has nothing to do with
|
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1:35:27 – 1:35:29
Self-pity or something. But at my last
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1:35:29 – 1:35:31
Christmas, '22, I was home
|
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1:35:31 – 1:35:33
sat down, was taken by my family
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1:35:33 – 1:35:35
Not invited. I became there
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1:35:35 – 1:35:37
Fully hosted, as if they weren't together
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1:35:37 – 1:35:39
Celebrate. And they had their
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1:35:39 – 1:35:41
Probably because they didn't want to,
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1:35:41 – 1:35:43
That the mood will be blown up because I was
|
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1:35:43 – 1:35:45
It's just too negative for such a
|
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1:35:45 – 1:35:47
Celebration. And I knew that,
|
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1:35:47 – 1:35:49
But they haven't even told me yet.
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1:35:49 – 1:35:51
or given me the opportunity,
|
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1:35:51 – 1:35:53
Maybe put me there
|
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1:35:53 – 1:35:55
in such a celebration. It could have been,
|
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1:35:55 – 1:35:57
Watch out, as an example, yes,
|
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1:35:57 – 1:35:59
When you go back to your Depre movie,
|
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1:35:59 – 1:36:01
That's not cool. Or ey, watch out, we're celebrating
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1:36:01 – 1:36:03
together physically. You can do it yourself,
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1:36:03 – 1:36:05
We can chat video or something. I'd be fine with it
|
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1:36:05 – 1:36:07
It was, really. It doesn't matter if I
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1:36:07 – 1:36:09
I'm depressed that day or not.
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1:36:09 – 1:36:11
But to exclude someone,
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1:36:11 – 1:36:13
to invite or not to invite at all,
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1:36:13 – 1:36:15
I thought it sucked.
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1:36:15 – 1:36:17
I don't want to chop on it now,
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1:36:17 – 1:36:19
Because it's private,
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1:36:19 – 1:36:21
It's not bad now either. But
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1:36:21 – 1:36:23
In situations like this, I can talk about it.
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1:36:23 – 1:36:25
And when a person arrives, yes, I have with my family
|
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1:36:25 – 1:36:27
Good contact. Why is it not so with you?
|
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1:36:27 – 1:36:29
So, I can say, yes, I just
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1:36:29 – 1:36:31
experience other things than you.
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1:36:31 – 1:36:33
I had a different environment. Just like birthdays.
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1:36:33 – 1:36:35
I think you have to imagine,
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1:36:35 – 1:36:37
I find it
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1:36:37 – 1:36:39
ultra, ultra, ultra unpleasant
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1:36:39 – 1:36:41
and I get goosebumps,
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1:36:41 – 1:36:43
Negative goosebumps. It shakes me, I get
|
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1:36:43 – 1:36:45
Scratching when someone starts,
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1:36:45 – 1:36:47
Singing a birthday song. You can imagine,
|
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1:36:47 – 1:36:49
I can't do that. Not drunk
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1:36:49 – 1:36:51
Not drunk yet. I get
|
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1:36:51 – 1:36:53
Strangler's reflexes. I just can't do that.
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1:36:53 – 1:36:55
I just hate it that way.
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1:36:55 – 1:36:57
I think everyone hates that.
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1:36:57 – 1:36:59
I don't know anyone who likes that.
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1:36:59 – 1:37:01
Yeah? Yes, yes.
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1:37:01 – 1:37:03
It's kind of uncomfortable for most people.
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1:37:03 – 1:37:05
Sure, but I think so, these
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1:37:05 – 1:37:07
Positive mood, people at Christmas
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1:37:07 – 1:37:09
or on birthdays, not that they
|
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1:37:09 – 1:37:11
are generally in a good mood, but
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1:37:11 – 1:37:13
This forced "Boah, now I have to do something,
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1:37:13 – 1:37:15
Otherwise, you always have quarrels in the family, but
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1:37:15 – 1:37:17
Now everything has to be perfect." And I hate
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1:37:17 – 1:37:19
that. That's where I fall
|
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1:37:19 – 1:37:21
always that
|
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1:37:21 – 1:37:23
Quote from
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1:37:23 – 1:37:25
A friend of mine, so
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1:37:25 – 1:37:27
My best friend and
|
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1:37:27 – 1:37:29
He always says so,
|
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1:37:29 – 1:37:31
I don't understand why we're coming around.
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1:37:31 – 1:37:33
We don't see each other all year.
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1:37:33 – 1:37:35
It will be all year round for you
|
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1:37:35 – 1:37:37
Talking on the phone, but this
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1:37:37 – 1:37:39
a certain holiday, since
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1:37:39 – 1:37:41
When we meet, we are all super happy.
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1:37:41 – 1:37:43
and happy." and
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1:37:43 – 1:37:45
I didn't know that at the time,
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1:37:45 – 1:37:47
Because my
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1:37:47 – 1:37:49
Family has been like this, you've been
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1:37:49 – 1:37:51
seen several times a year, then
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1:37:51 – 1:37:53
We went to different birthday parties,
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1:37:53 – 1:37:55
I have met with my grandmother many times,
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1:37:55 – 1:37:57
Then they came with us.
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1:37:57 – 1:37:59
often, because we are also close to
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1:37:59 – 1:38:01
If you lived in a cemetery, you could
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1:38:01 – 1:38:03
Stop there when you see the lights.
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1:38:03 – 1:38:05
Go to the cemetery, go there.
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1:38:05 – 1:38:07
And that was
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1:38:07 – 1:38:09
It was so normal that even
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1:38:09 – 1:38:11
Aunts and cousins,
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1:38:11 – 1:38:13
and cousins
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1:38:13 – 1:38:15
Even from my father,
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1:38:15 – 1:38:17
regularly with us,
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1:38:17 – 1:38:19
that I don't even
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1:38:19 – 1:38:21
I knew that otherwise it would be so
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1:38:21 – 1:38:23
Not at all as a family
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1:38:23 – 1:38:25
sees. And that's why.
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1:38:25 – 1:38:27
I fall
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1:38:27 – 1:38:29
Just remember that we are very, very, very
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1:38:29 – 1:38:31
A lot of digression.
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1:38:31 – 1:38:33
But they are relationships.
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1:38:33 – 1:38:35
It's relationships, of course, of course.
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1:38:35 – 1:38:37
I think
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1:38:37 – 1:38:39
As a conclusion from me
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1:38:39 – 1:38:41
At least it looked,
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1:38:41 – 1:38:43
It is all right,
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1:38:43 – 1:38:45
When you say, watch out,
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1:38:45 – 1:38:47
I want something like that,
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1:38:47 – 1:38:49
I just want something like that.
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1:38:49 – 1:38:51
But it's also totally okay to say, hey, watch out,
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1:38:51 – 1:38:53
I want, as you said,
|
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1:38:53 – 1:38:55
have an exclusive relationship,
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1:38:55 – 1:38:57
You have something exclusive and you want it.
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1:38:57 – 1:38:59
rather not. That would rather me
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1:38:59 – 1:39:01
Stress or maybe emotionally
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1:39:01 – 1:39:03
Break a little bit.
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1:39:03 – 1:39:05
It is open to everyone as long as
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1:39:05 – 1:39:07
Don't make your partner feel
|
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1:39:07 – 1:39:09
that you own this person,
|
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1:39:09 – 1:39:11
Because when it comes to that, you can't
|
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1:39:11 – 1:39:13
I wonder if the person will ever
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1:39:13 – 1:39:15
Just pissed off,
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1:39:15 – 1:39:17
Or stop the shoe, just go.
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1:39:17 – 1:39:19
You can make a person so
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1:39:19 – 1:39:21
Stay with you for a while, but
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1:39:21 – 1:39:23
At some point, the person will feel constricted.
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1:39:23 – 1:39:25
and just no longer in a good mood,
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1:39:25 – 1:39:27
happy, happy, and then the person
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1:39:27 – 1:39:29
Let's go. So for me is, I am
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1:39:29 – 1:39:31
Still at the present time,
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1:39:31 – 1:39:33
At the end of 20, i.e. almost 30, next year
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1:39:33 – 1:39:35
30, I still think,
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1:39:35 – 1:39:37
Monogamous relationships are the only thing
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1:39:37 – 1:39:39
What I would accept,
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1:39:39 – 1:39:41
How can I be with two women at the same time?
|
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1:39:41 – 1:39:43
Come on, if I'm having a hard time,
|
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1:39:43 – 1:39:45
Getting to know a woman
|
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1:39:45 – 1:39:47
and to maintain the relationship,
|
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1:39:47 – 1:39:49
what love
|
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1:39:49 – 1:39:51
and so on.
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1:39:51 – 1:39:53
I'm also such a person, I can now
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1:39:53 – 1:39:55
As a conclusion,
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There are people out there who are learning.
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They meet a lot, a lot of people.
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you know, have a little sex, a little relationship,
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a little love and so, a lot of friendships
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And I'm someone I need
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Several years until I
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Really say this person is real.
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He deserves a place in my heart,
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This man is madness, really great,
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Whether the good things or the
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negative things, this person is just great,
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It takes me years to get a person emotional.
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to let go,
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From a human point of view,
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I can do that as a conclusion.
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actually say.
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We have a lot in this podcast.
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I also talked about sex,
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I think we got the curve at some point,
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They also brought in a little bit of love,
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which I found very good, but it is a very, very
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This is an important issue, and I believe it is a topical one.
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Yes, I mean,
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People are talking more and more about it,
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that there are also alternative forms of relationships,
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Then also
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Alternative,
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gender identity;
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There are now at the moment
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A lot of change, and I think that's a good thing.
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Because people aren't all at once
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This is how people have always been
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So, only we can
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Let us now, especially in our
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Society and God preserve us,
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that this should change,
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You can trust,
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To be the person you are
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And now I wanted to
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close and words together,
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I've been in the course of my love life
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the deceived,
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the Scammer
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and
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I was the one who cheated.
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and I'll tell you one thing,
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There are two of these things
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Things feel really shitty
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and that was
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Not the one,
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with the
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is deceived,
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because the role was really pleasant,
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'Cause you've had a lot of pleasures, you've got beautiful
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Things done, have great, exciting things
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There was little and there was little
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commitments
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and this shows
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Just as people are to me,
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Even though I'm in one relationship
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Something, so it was pretty much over.
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was what was missing,
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Then I have
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I took a step and then
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It's almost for me
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this relationship has already ended, it has not been communicated,
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But she was almost
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broken, yes
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And then I'm a stranger
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gone, a single day,
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Because then I have the relationship.
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It ended because it was
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It was the experience that showed me this.
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and that was
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super nasty unpleasant,
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'Cause I felt really bad
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And actually, I would have, oh what
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is that for a great authenticity, two women and so on
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horny, but no
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I felt so bad and
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I felt so bad,
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'Cause I'm in the
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Thought barrel now had,
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How I felt, how I cheated
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has been and how must
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they feel now
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and this has
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The whole thing just totally
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spoiled, so
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My mindset and
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This may also be the point,
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which then shows that it is very important
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is, about desires
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and about ideas
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with the people,
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with whom she spends a lot of time,
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Talking about relationships
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And not only
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Partner and also
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In other relationships, you
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Talk about it a lot more,
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As for one, it would
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Get a lot of problems out of the way
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And we could do a lot more
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to the interesting and beautiful
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Concentrate on aspects of life as
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1:43:29 – 1:43:31
We're all dealing with this kind of negative shit.
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1:43:31 – 1:43:33
Just because I don't have something
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or because it makes me uncomfortable,
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Do not communicate.
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1:43:37 – 1:43:39
Yeah, and now I'm done.
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1:43:39 – 1:43:41
Communication is
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no matter how, no matter how, a very,
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1:43:43 – 1:43:45
Very important thing that you
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should always be heeded.
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1:43:47 – 1:43:49
I think that was the first time on the subject.
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1:43:49 – 1:43:51
Nevertheless, a few final words
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Here about something in another
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It's a matter. I'm really proud
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1:43:55 – 1:43:57
and grateful that we
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in such a short time, again
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Record a podcast.
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1:44:01 – 1:44:03
I mean, it was a little late today.
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In our time we already have 1 o'clock at night
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and I mean, the typical
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3 o'clock at night
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Talk, I'll say, even if it's two hours.
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1:44:11 – 1:44:13
Before that, they were somehow
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The most enjoyable because it's easy to
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philosophizing about things and just thinking
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1:44:17 – 1:44:19
Let's go free. I think that's something, too,
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1:44:19 – 1:44:21
what you do as a podcast partner,
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1:44:21 – 1:44:23
I have to say for a moment,
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1:44:23 – 1:44:25
It is very, very valuable to me because
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Talk as if in private
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1:44:27 – 1:44:29
Just keep it simple and you chat
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1:44:29 – 1:44:31
Keep it up and don't work on the issues.
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1:44:31 – 1:44:33
Just keep it systematic. So, now, now
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1:44:33 – 1:44:35
We have to stop. So, now next topic, now we have to
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1:44:35 – 1:44:37
Stop it. They talk about
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1:44:37 – 1:44:39
friendships in the first 20 minutes,
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And in minute 40, too.
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1:44:41 – 1:44:43
again about friendships, in between again about the
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1:44:43 – 1:44:45
And that, go away a little. This is for me a
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1:44:45 – 1:44:47
A cool conversation. I think the listeners will
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1:44:47 – 1:44:49
See it the same way.
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1:44:49 – 1:44:51
Yes, to the
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1:44:51 – 1:44:53
subject matter;
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1:44:53 – 1:44:55
Thanks, I can
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1:44:55 – 1:44:57
Just give it back. I see
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1:44:57 – 1:44:59
Just like you, so a
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1:44:59 – 1:45:01
Tightly structured structure for you
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1:45:01 – 1:45:03
Podcasts aren't for me.
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1:45:03 – 1:45:05
doable because
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1:45:05 – 1:45:07
It just constricts too much.
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1:45:07 – 1:45:09
I can prepare it a little, I can
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1:45:09 – 1:45:11
Find out questions, so if I'm on
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1:45:11 – 1:45:13
make the technology podcasts interviews,
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1:45:13 – 1:45:15
Of course, I'll look at questions like this before.
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1:45:15 – 1:45:17
and something like that might be interesting,
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1:45:17 – 1:45:19
But by and large it is
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1:45:19 – 1:45:21
The structure is open.
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1:45:21 – 1:45:23
You get much better
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1:45:23 – 1:45:25
Results are as if you are trying on rake.
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1:45:25 – 1:45:27
Besides, this is
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1:45:27 – 1:45:29
No radio. If there is a consequence
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1:45:29 – 1:45:31
It takes five hours, then it takes
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1:45:31 – 1:45:33
Five hours. It's like that.
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1:45:33 – 1:45:35
Yes, exactly.
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1:45:35 – 1:45:37
At this point
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1:45:37 – 1:45:39
I send greetings to the people who
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1:45:39 – 1:45:41
Spotify has always listened. If you are here with
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1:45:41 – 1:45:43
YouTube listens, which is always very cumbersome,
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1:45:43 – 1:45:45
The video has to go and
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1:45:45 – 1:45:47
Not everyone has YouTube Premium.
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1:45:47 – 1:45:49
This is a video, which is not a video.
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1:45:49 – 1:45:51
It's just a background image
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1:45:51 – 1:45:53
and so on and so forth, even if it animates
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1:45:53 – 1:45:55
You have to let go and so on and so forth.
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1:45:55 – 1:45:57
And if you really just buck up
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1:45:57 – 1:45:59
which have pure audio, so really the pure
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1:45:59 – 1:46:01
Audio and on the go
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1:46:01 – 1:46:03
If you want to listen, go to Spotify.
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1:46:03 – 1:46:05
Whether it's with me now or with him now.
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1:46:05 – 1:46:07
Love Sasha doesn't matter. I will always
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1:46:07 – 1:46:09
from Sascha put in a few links
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1:46:09 – 1:46:11
in the description.
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1:46:11 – 1:46:13
I'll do it with you, too, because it's yours.
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1:46:13 – 1:46:15
Yes, of course. We are not only
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1:46:15 – 1:46:17
Podcast partners, we are also in real-life,
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1:46:17 – 1:46:19
In real life, as privately as I say,
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1:46:19 – 1:46:21
Also good friends. The right bros.
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1:46:21 – 1:46:23
Yes, such real bros
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1:46:23 – 1:46:25
Just keep it simple.
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1:46:25 – 1:46:27
Yes, I thank you here at this point
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1:46:27 – 1:46:29
again. If you have any unanswered questions on the subject,
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1:46:29 – 1:46:31
If you have, or if anything was unclear, or if you
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1:46:31 – 1:46:33
Says, oh, Empty, what you said
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1:46:33 – 1:46:35
It's bad, it's unpleasant.
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1:46:35 – 1:46:37
I have something else to say,
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1:46:37 – 1:46:39
You can do this on YouTube in the comments.
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1:46:39 – 1:46:41
writing. I would be very, very
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1:46:41 – 1:46:43
Interested because we are always open to feedback
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1:46:43 – 1:46:45
Criticism and
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1:46:45 – 1:46:47
This is also a part of communication.
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1:46:47 – 1:46:49
That's how we can continue with podcasts.
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1:46:49 – 1:46:51
And if you have any topic again
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1:46:51 – 1:46:53
You have, no matter what
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1:46:53 – 1:46:55
Out there, what interests you, writes
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1:46:55 – 1:46:57
Just write it in the comments or
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1:46:57 – 1:46:59
At least on Instagram or TikTok
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1:46:59 – 1:47:01
or in Discord or something, links are in the
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1:47:01 – 1:47:03
Video description, you can see all of this
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1:47:03 – 1:47:05
Suggest topics and it is
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1:47:05 – 1:47:07
There is always a chance that we will
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1:47:07 – 1:47:09
Just take part in a theme podcast.
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1:47:09 – 1:47:11
With you, that means borderline,
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1:47:11 – 1:47:13
These are just normal podcasts.
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1:47:13 – 1:47:15
on certain issues and
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1:47:15 – 1:47:17
otherwise I have nothing to say,
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1:47:17 – 1:47:19
I feel very, very good
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1:47:19 – 1:47:21
and we had a very, very cool, pleasant
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1:47:21 – 1:47:23
Talk about a very, very
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1:47:23 – 1:47:25
It's a cool topic, even if
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1:47:25 – 1:47:27
We have certain views
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1:47:27 – 1:47:29
I didn't have it like the other one, but that's it.
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1:47:29 – 1:47:31
It was a cool communication though.
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1:47:31 – 1:47:33
and I was very, very, very pleased,
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1:47:33 – 1:47:35
It was a pleasant conversation and I
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1:47:35 – 1:47:37
I have nothing more to add.
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1:47:37 – 1:47:39
No, I was very much looking forward to discussing the subject,
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1:47:39 – 1:47:41
Because you can't do that with
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1:47:41 – 1:47:43
We all talk about it because a certain
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1:47:43 – 1:47:45
Openness is Yes
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1:47:45 – 1:47:47
before and the acceptance that
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1:47:47 – 1:47:49
People have different views
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1:47:49 – 1:47:51
They can and don't all have it.
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1:47:51 – 1:47:53
I also wanted
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1:47:53 – 1:47:55
Say it again if you have any suggestions.
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1:47:55 – 1:47:57
Criticism or something,
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1:47:57 – 1:47:59
in the Shownotes
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1:47:59 – 1:48:01
with me, so
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1:48:01 – 1:48:03
under loud radio and then borderline,
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1:48:03 – 1:48:05
There you can stop
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1:48:05 – 1:48:07
Click on the link and you will get to
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1:48:07 – 1:48:09
Function and you are welcome to do so.
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1:48:09 – 1:48:11
It's even a phone number
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1:48:11 – 1:48:13
switched to an answering machine,
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1:48:13 – 1:48:15
You can also call and then stop.
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1:48:15 – 1:48:17
leave an audio and if you want that,
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1:48:17 – 1:48:19
You can even do this in a later episode.
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1:48:19 – 1:48:21
Take a moment and then
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1:48:21 – 1:48:23
stop in
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1:48:23 – 1:48:25
Audioform gives an answer.
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1:48:25 – 1:48:27
So, thank you
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1:48:27 – 1:48:29
I am myself. Glad that we did this
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1:48:29 – 1:48:31
They came back and I hope,
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1:48:31 – 1:48:33
I hope we don't have two now.
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1:48:33 – 1:48:35
We'll wait years for the next episode.
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1:48:35 – 1:48:37
We now have two podcasts.
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1:48:37 – 1:48:39
made within a week, now we must
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1:48:39 – 1:48:41
Wait two years, just to stay true to us
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1:48:41 – 1:48:43
And our mindset is like that.
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1:48:43 – 1:48:45
Keep it as it was. I hope
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1:48:45 – 1:48:47
And, of course, we will be back in the future.
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1:48:47 – 1:48:49
Address more issues. I'm sure there are a few topics,
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1:48:49 – 1:48:51
Which we can address. We need to be more active.
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1:48:51 – 1:48:53
Absolutely, I love to record podcasts.
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1:48:53 – 1:48:55
I love that. Now in summer
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1:48:55 – 1:48:57
It's a little bit harder, of course, because of the whole thing.
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1:48:57 – 1:48:59
Heat and so on, but ey,
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1:48:59 – 1:49:01
You give worse. That's right.
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1:49:01 – 1:49:03
It was a very, very good talk and
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1:49:03 – 1:49:05
At this point I say goodbye
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1:49:05 – 1:49:07
Listen to the next podcast.
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1:49:07 – 1:49:09
Ciao. Exactly. And I also say
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1:49:09 – 1:49:11
Bye bye.
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1:49:11 – 1:49:13
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Controversial issues
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with my guests
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hotly debated
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borderline
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the Podcast
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